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All in four days. the wierdest four days. i cant put my finger on the way i feel. things change so fast.
its friday. and what is supposed to be an enjoyable and relaxing evening with friends, old and new becomes a stressful and regretfull time. and in the midst of everything my phone rings, oh my god, its jeremy. his voice seems unreal to me. we talk, for hours, and laugh, and its all familiar again and i miss my old friend terribly.
So its saturday. and im out of work and its dusk. and i'm driving alone for over an hour to get to wilton. to get to jeremy. and i laugh to myself. where am i going? and i crack the window and turn up the smiths on the stereo. and i am completely alone, and completely content. and the sky and the winding deserted road are the most comforting feeling of lonliness i have ever had. and that was the best part of my weekend and i hope i dont forget it. forget how the most comfortable and pleasing part of my trip was the part where i was alone.
we sleep in a tent on a hill in the yard. its cold and uncomfortable and not just because of the conditions. i liked waking up with someones arms around me and a kiss on the cheek here and there. but the pressure and unassurance of that night made it hard to think clearly and come to a dicision. but i think in a short time i will. because its time to take time for careful decisions. decisions i am sure i have made for me and my own happiness.
stayed in on sunday and just took some time for me. it felt good to sit around in comfortable clothes and not have a single place to be or person to drive home.
monday, got holiday pay at work, finished two dot lists which i hope pleased corey because i do try, and decided to see garden state. and i am so glad i did. it is, right now in my mind, the greatest movie i have ever seen. it was truely amazing, and cute, and beautiful, and emotional, and awkward, and original. i loved everything about it. i was very impressed. and my name is on the promo of the soundtrack at work. i am looking forward to sweet dreams tonight.
its friday. and what is supposed to be an enjoyable and relaxing evening with friends, old and new becomes a stressful and regretfull time. and in the midst of everything my phone rings, oh my god, its jeremy. his voice seems unreal to me. we talk, for hours, and laugh, and its all familiar again and i miss my old friend terribly.
So its saturday. and im out of work and its dusk. and i'm driving alone for over an hour to get to wilton. to get to jeremy. and i laugh to myself. where am i going? and i crack the window and turn up the smiths on the stereo. and i am completely alone, and completely content. and the sky and the winding deserted road are the most comforting feeling of lonliness i have ever had. and that was the best part of my weekend and i hope i dont forget it. forget how the most comfortable and pleasing part of my trip was the part where i was alone.
we sleep in a tent on a hill in the yard. its cold and uncomfortable and not just because of the conditions. i liked waking up with someones arms around me and a kiss on the cheek here and there. but the pressure and unassurance of that night made it hard to think clearly and come to a dicision. but i think in a short time i will. because its time to take time for careful decisions. decisions i am sure i have made for me and my own happiness.
stayed in on sunday and just took some time for me. it felt good to sit around in comfortable clothes and not have a single place to be or person to drive home.
monday, got holiday pay at work, finished two dot lists which i hope pleased corey because i do try, and decided to see garden state. and i am so glad i did. it is, right now in my mind, the greatest movie i have ever seen. it was truely amazing, and cute, and beautiful, and emotional, and awkward, and original. i loved everything about it. i was very impressed. and my name is on the promo of the soundtrack at work. i am looking forward to sweet dreams tonight.