ugh, sigh, yawn, sniffle...

[wewerekids]

this is my new life. working every god damned day. and with a unbearably difficult person. and i thought he was the nice one. and i was TOTALLY wrong. he hates me. or its just cuz im the newest addition. but whatever it is, its unfair. 8 hours every day and then this little punk comes in and effs around and bosses me around like he has some kind of authority. i would be more than happy to do what he asks of me if he werent such a dick to me all the time. but thats the reality of my situation.

i am paying for the mistake i made of not going to meca this semester. i could have found a place to crash there. im sure. and i could have commuted too. it wouldnt have been that bad.but no. now im stuck in this hell for longer and im not going to be unhappy anymore, especially over a job. and i seriously think im gonna make up first semester and go in for second. it will be stressful as hell but its better than this kind of stress. and feeling all alone in this city that feels so huge all of a sudden.

i need to get out of here. all i want is to move into my new dorm on monday at meca with all the other kids. meet my new roomate. make new friends. go to class and just worry about art and staying alive. god. i should have really pushed to get in there. and to come up with the money for my deposites faster so i would have a dorm. at first it made sence but now i cant believe i ever put it off.

all i can do now is hope people drop out and that there is a way that i can still go late.