ahhhhhh...wtf
well another night gone. worked sucked so bad. stuck behind register 10. i cant wait to get out of there. i have an interview at bullmoose tomorrow. i dont know if i want the job. i have a feeling i wont like it so much. but i have a feeling i wont like any job that much. its odd because i kinda want the job at olympia. the people there are just so nice and its such a laid back job. we'll see what happens.
came home with a headache. then josh called and i went to hang out with mitch lilly and adam tremblay and of course Josh the Barrett. mitch's back started hurting and then they all left with joe. ezras been talking smack about me but i think hes a hypocrite.
i woke up crying last night, i dreamt about zach. it was wierd. all of a sudden i miss him again. i think its just because jeremy is out of my life now. the void is back full force. im a little pissed at jeremy now. for leaving my the way he did. i dont think we will ever talk again, if i dont call him its a safe bet he'll never call me. none of what happened between us means enough to keep anything going i guess. my mistake.
i have nothing to look ahead to, school is put off till next year. and it looks more and more everyday like im going to be living at home like nothings changed. something has to change. i need that.im afraid i'll be living my nightmare.
well. its late and my eyes are dry. time for a sip of warm cherry coke and off to bed.
came home with a headache. then josh called and i went to hang out with mitch lilly and adam tremblay and of course Josh the Barrett. mitch's back started hurting and then they all left with joe. ezras been talking smack about me but i think hes a hypocrite.
i woke up crying last night, i dreamt about zach. it was wierd. all of a sudden i miss him again. i think its just because jeremy is out of my life now. the void is back full force. im a little pissed at jeremy now. for leaving my the way he did. i dont think we will ever talk again, if i dont call him its a safe bet he'll never call me. none of what happened between us means enough to keep anything going i guess. my mistake.
i have nothing to look ahead to, school is put off till next year. and it looks more and more everyday like im going to be living at home like nothings changed. something has to change. i need that.im afraid i'll be living my nightmare.
well. its late and my eyes are dry. time for a sip of warm cherry coke and off to bed.