Just another HS fic-Chapter 44
-CHAPTER 44-
Another school day, another day to face the world.
The night before, I opened Euna’s package. It wasn’t much; just some little pastries and an apology card saying how she’s sorry about how Yunho’s behaving. I don’t get it. It’s just an apology letter, why would Yunho be mad?
But wait…if the package was wrecked, perhaps that would mean that… Yunho wrecked it?
Of course… Euna wouldn’t do that herself and no student would dare either. If Yunho wrecked it… they must have both been in class when it happened since that’s when Euna had to put it on my desk which probably means…
Oh shit. In class…?
So… now the whole school knows about their relationship? So then Euna giving me a package and Yunho getting mad about it…
Oh… so that’s why everybody has been staring at me with fearful eyes. They fear for me.
Well. They can fear all they want.
I’m not afraid of him.
~ ~ ~
Today when I got the school, Mansu was yet again waiting for me at the entrance. Talk about originality.
“Well, well, look who’s here” Mansu said with a gangster smile. This guy should just go act in one of those gangster movies, he’d be a natural.
“I’m guessing you’re not going to let me pass?” I said, rolling my eyes.
“Wow, it looks like somebody finally got a brain for once!” he mocked. Mansu just called me stupid; talk about ironic.
“Ok, look here bud” I told him, looking at him in the eyes fiercely “if you haven’t noticed, with my tutor job, I’m getting quite close with the principal of the school. And you know what this means? This means that no matter what you do, I can tell on you whenever and get you expelled, you get it?” I said, poking his chest.
“Why you-“ he said as he raised his fist.
“Out of my way!” I shouted and pushed him aside before he layed his hand on me. He fell on the floor with a surprised face. I shot him a threatening glare before entering school.
On my way to class, I met up with an excited looking Yoochun.
“So, did you talk with Junsu?” he asked as if he was a drug abuser with withdrawal symptoms asking for drugs. I’m starting to think that this guy really likes Junsu. Huh, whaddyaknow?
But how am I going to answer him? He did nothing wrong, the poor guy…
“Um… let’s just say that Junsu finds it unconfortable that you two hang out so much while me and Yunho are having problems so… yeah. Sorry” I apologized.
“You guys are having problems? Since when?” Yoochun asked like if he’s been living under a rock for the past two weeks. I mean come on! The whole school knows!
“Yea… I’m sorry that this is affecting the two of you and all, but I can’t really do much about it even if I wanted to… he… doesn’t really feel like talking to me I think” I said.
“I’ll talk to him” Yoochun said and started walking away.
“Wait-! Don’t…” I said. He turned around.
“You don’t want me to talk to him?” Yoochun asked.
“No… it’s just that…I don’t know… I have the feeling like it’s only going to make this more complicated…” I told him and he shook his head.
“Well I’m his friend anyways. If he talks to nobody else, he should at least talk to me” Yoochun said and left. I sighed and also went to class.
When I entered class, people were staring at me again, but I’m pretty much used to it by now.
Yunho wasn’t here yet, but Euna was already here.
Class was almost starting when Yunho walked in, looking at me furiously. Something tells me that Yoochun talking to him only got him angrier. I knew that it was a bad idea.
~ ~ ~
At lunch, before I even stood up from my chair, Yunho’s hand slammed itself on my desk. Seeing that, everybody else quickly left the classroom. I bit my lips. I looked up at Yunho’s imposing figure, staring down at me with a dark look. Looking at him gives me mixed feelings. I still like him-it’s not that easy to get rid of feelings- , but I also hate him. I hate the fact that I know that he’s somebody who’s good at the core.
“Hi” I said simply.
“So. It looks like you’re able to get everybody to revolve around your fingers, eh?” Yunho said; he looked sure of what he said.
“I don’t think that’s what I’m trying to-” I told him, honestly.
“Even if it isn’t” he cut in “you’ve already succeeded” he told me. “You have everybody. Your friends, my friend and even my girlfriend” he shot me a venomous glare as he said that last part. “I hope you’re satisfied”
Satisfied? He thinks I’m satisfied with this shit I’m in? And he thinks that I “got” his girlfriend just because she sent me an apology letter?
“Then what about you?” I replied, tone slightly bitter.
“What?”
“If I have everybody, why don’t I have you?” I said defiantly and my feelings wavered dangerously. Yunho… if only he knew that he was the one that I really want…
“Hmph. So you want to get me enticed too? Was that what you wanted from the beginning? To get the most popular people to like you, is that it?” he said, fueling his own hate.
Right now, I feel like I really can’t stand Yunho blaming me for things that I didn’t do. If he isn’t going to end this conversation, then I will; whether somebody will get hurt or not.
“You know… if people like me. Then I must be doing something right” I told him, looking at him dead in the eyes “and… I also know that if somebody likes me and helps me unconditionally, it must be that they’re genuine about it. I mean, unlike you, I have nothing to offer them. I don’t have any money and I don’t have fame either. Heck, I even have the bullies after me”
Yunho gave me a disbelieved laugh and looked away, shaking his head with a smirk.
I got up, not taking my eyes off his. I don’t want to hurt him, but this can’t go on forever. I guess we’ll all have to suffer in the end.
“And… I find that whether somebody likes me or not, it’s personal. It’s the bond between me and that person, not you. Feelings can’t be forced, Yunho. I can’t force them to like me nor can I force you to like me. But… I sincerely hope you will…” I said and exited the class, not daring to look back.
I hope he’s not as hurt as I am right now…
~ ~ ~
I sat down for lunch, unhappy. Junsu didn’t look happy either and both IU and Changmin just looked awkward, sitting next to us.
“So… I’m guessing things didn’t go well back there?” IU said, looking uncomfortable asking me the question. I bit back the horrible feeling that I felt in inside.
“Nope” I said. We started eating and nobody spoke for a little while.
“Hey, how about we all stay while the others go to the road trip this Friday and have some fun? Just the four of us?” Changmin suggested, smiling sheepishly.
“Yea! … that would be fun!” IU also added, smiling tentatively at us. I looked at Junsu who looked like a sad puppy, head resting on the table, not touching his food.
“Naw… you guys go… I don’t think hanging out is the cure for me…” I told them and patted Junsu on the head “you should bring him along though and try to cheer him up” I told the two of them. I then leaned closer to IU and Changmin so that Junsu wouldn’t hear what I was about to say “I don’t think Junsu knows yet, but I’m pretty sure that Yoochun really likes him…” I whispered. They both looked at each other, smiling.
“Okay then hyung. We’ll make sure that Junsu has fun during the trip” Changmin said suggestively.
“Yep. We’ll make sure he doesn’t get lonely” IU added smiling in a creepy way.
Junsu wasn’t listening, he just kept on being in his own little bubble of sadness, pouting.
“Okay, you guys do that” I said, rolling my eyes with a smile. It’s moment like these that make me feel not so sad; to know that I have such good friends around me.
Suddenly, Yoochun popped out of nowhere. As soon as he did, Junsu gave him a longing look, like if he was looking at a toy he couldn’t have.
“Hey Jaejoong? Can we have a talk?” Yoochun said, to my surprise; I was sure he’d want a talk with Junsu. Right after Yoochun said that he needed to talk to me, Junsu looked away, dissapointed and sad.
“Alright” I said to Yoochun and got up. I patted Junsu on the shoulder before following Yoochun to wherever he was leading me.
“Jaejoong-sshi” Yoochun said, which surprised me again. He never used any honorifics with me before.
“What’s up?”
“I heard what happened between you and Yunho in class. Sorry about that” Yoochun apologized.
“Oh… that?... It’s alright” I said, trying to brush it off.
“All I told him was to be nicer to you and that you didn’t do anything bad, but he just got mad and-“
“Yoochun” I said, not wanting to listen.
“Hm…?” he said, looking at me confusedly.
“It’s okay” I said, again.
“Oh…”
“Yeah…”
We stood there silently. I expected him to leave first, but I guess not. Maybe he wants to know about Junsu?
“About …”he started, slightly embarassed.
“…Junsu?” I finished for him with a grin.
“Yes, how did you-“
“He’ll be going to the road trip this Friday. You should go too” I said. It took him a few seconds to get what I was trying to say, but he ended up giving me a large goofy grin when he understood.
“…Thanks…!” he said, blushing slightly, probably realizing that I knew slightly more than what he thought.
“Yep, good luck with that” I said, giving him a casual encouraging tap on the shoulder and left.
~ ~ ~
After school, I got asked to tutor again. I expected it to be Siwon again, but no. It was the contrary.
“Honeyyyyy~!!!” Heechul said dramatically, rushing to me before I even got out of the car. He was wearing some kind of hideous pink poofy pyjama thing. His hair was tied into a ponytail. Seriously, this dude looks like a girl. He gave me a big bear hug. Ew…a gay bear hug…
“Um…?” I said, trying to break free.
“I missed you, dear~! Oh! And your hair, what happened to my darling creation?!” he exclaimed in a high pitch scream.
“Um…?” I said again, actually not knowing how to react to Heechul’s… outburst.
“Come in quickly so that I can fix this horrendous mess on your head!” he said, shooing me to get in his house.
Sigh.
~ ~ ~
I sat on the haircut chair and he immediately started fiddling with my hair.
“So I guess no studying today?” I asked, rolling my eyes. Heechul burst out in laughter at my words.
“Of course not, silly~!” he said matter-of-factly and also very very gayly.
“Hm. Lemme guess you called me over to help you with Siwon?” I asked, making a bored face.
He gasped, fakely offended.
“Well! Is it impossible for me to miss a friend from time to time?” he said, looking fakely shocked, a hand at his chest, the other one holding an invisible tray.
I raised an eyebrow.
“No really! I did miss you!” he said innocently.
“And…” I continued.
“…want help with Siwon…” he finally admitted “ugh… you’re no fun. So unfabulous…” he muttered, flipping his hair with indignation.
“That’s more like it. Well. The good news is that Siwon doesn’t hate you” I said.
“Well duh! You can’t hate me, okay? I’m-“
“Fabulous, yes I know, but stop that. I’m talking” I told him and he shut up, seeing clearly from my reflection in the mirror that I was in no mood to be gay in more than one way.
“The bad news is that his dad thinks that people like you should be killed” I said.
Heechul froze, his jaw dropping in shock.
“Hoh-my-gawd… like you mean… he’s one of those…” Heechul said with a pre-bitchfit face.
“Well, just feel lucky that Siwon didn’t turn out like that” I told him nonchalantly.
“But like… oh my god, hello? Twenty-first century, people!” he complained to God-knows-who. No… not God. Um… to whom it may concern. Yeah, that’s more like it.
“Well, there isn’t much you can do about it” I told Heechul who looked uber pissed and insulted.
“Well… this… this is…” he searched the word for it.
“Unfabulous?” I suggested.
“No!” No? “This is more that just unfabulous! This is mother-bitch-effin-bullshit, okay?! I swear, like people like that should just go to effin HELL and die and burn and get their inners fed to hellhounds, okay?!” he exploded, throwing his arms around crazily.
His hair got messed up too.
I looked at him with wide, freaked out eyes. I could see them since I was staring at a mirror and dammmn, I looked really freaked.
“Um yep. His dad would wannnnt to kill you” I said, raising both eyebrows.
~ ~ ~
I went back home after convincing Heechul to go to that roadtrip since Siwon was going. I thought he would give up after I told him about Siwon’s dad, but no. It seemed to have made him even more determined into wanting Siwon and turning his dad into a rainbow-friendly guy.
Heechul is one scary dude…
Well, tomorrow is Thursday; one day before the roadtrip. Hopefully everybody will have fun…
Cause I know I won’t…
~ ~ ~
Another school day, another day to face the world.
The night before, I opened Euna’s package. It wasn’t much; just some little pastries and an apology card saying how she’s sorry about how Yunho’s behaving. I don’t get it. It’s just an apology letter, why would Yunho be mad?
But wait…if the package was wrecked, perhaps that would mean that… Yunho wrecked it?
Of course… Euna wouldn’t do that herself and no student would dare either. If Yunho wrecked it… they must have both been in class when it happened since that’s when Euna had to put it on my desk which probably means…
Oh shit. In class…?
So… now the whole school knows about their relationship? So then Euna giving me a package and Yunho getting mad about it…
Oh… so that’s why everybody has been staring at me with fearful eyes. They fear for me.
Well. They can fear all they want.
I’m not afraid of him.
~ ~ ~
Today when I got the school, Mansu was yet again waiting for me at the entrance. Talk about originality.
“Well, well, look who’s here” Mansu said with a gangster smile. This guy should just go act in one of those gangster movies, he’d be a natural.
“I’m guessing you’re not going to let me pass?” I said, rolling my eyes.
“Wow, it looks like somebody finally got a brain for once!” he mocked. Mansu just called me stupid; talk about ironic.
“Ok, look here bud” I told him, looking at him in the eyes fiercely “if you haven’t noticed, with my tutor job, I’m getting quite close with the principal of the school. And you know what this means? This means that no matter what you do, I can tell on you whenever and get you expelled, you get it?” I said, poking his chest.
“Why you-“ he said as he raised his fist.
“Out of my way!” I shouted and pushed him aside before he layed his hand on me. He fell on the floor with a surprised face. I shot him a threatening glare before entering school.
On my way to class, I met up with an excited looking Yoochun.
“So, did you talk with Junsu?” he asked as if he was a drug abuser with withdrawal symptoms asking for drugs. I’m starting to think that this guy really likes Junsu. Huh, whaddyaknow?
But how am I going to answer him? He did nothing wrong, the poor guy…
“Um… let’s just say that Junsu finds it unconfortable that you two hang out so much while me and Yunho are having problems so… yeah. Sorry” I apologized.
“You guys are having problems? Since when?” Yoochun asked like if he’s been living under a rock for the past two weeks. I mean come on! The whole school knows!
“Yea… I’m sorry that this is affecting the two of you and all, but I can’t really do much about it even if I wanted to… he… doesn’t really feel like talking to me I think” I said.
“I’ll talk to him” Yoochun said and started walking away.
“Wait-! Don’t…” I said. He turned around.
“You don’t want me to talk to him?” Yoochun asked.
“No… it’s just that…I don’t know… I have the feeling like it’s only going to make this more complicated…” I told him and he shook his head.
“Well I’m his friend anyways. If he talks to nobody else, he should at least talk to me” Yoochun said and left. I sighed and also went to class.
When I entered class, people were staring at me again, but I’m pretty much used to it by now.
Yunho wasn’t here yet, but Euna was already here.
Class was almost starting when Yunho walked in, looking at me furiously. Something tells me that Yoochun talking to him only got him angrier. I knew that it was a bad idea.
~ ~ ~
At lunch, before I even stood up from my chair, Yunho’s hand slammed itself on my desk. Seeing that, everybody else quickly left the classroom. I bit my lips. I looked up at Yunho’s imposing figure, staring down at me with a dark look. Looking at him gives me mixed feelings. I still like him-it’s not that easy to get rid of feelings- , but I also hate him. I hate the fact that I know that he’s somebody who’s good at the core.
“Hi” I said simply.
“So. It looks like you’re able to get everybody to revolve around your fingers, eh?” Yunho said; he looked sure of what he said.
“I don’t think that’s what I’m trying to-” I told him, honestly.
“Even if it isn’t” he cut in “you’ve already succeeded” he told me. “You have everybody. Your friends, my friend and even my girlfriend” he shot me a venomous glare as he said that last part. “I hope you’re satisfied”
Satisfied? He thinks I’m satisfied with this shit I’m in? And he thinks that I “got” his girlfriend just because she sent me an apology letter?
“Then what about you?” I replied, tone slightly bitter.
“What?”
“If I have everybody, why don’t I have you?” I said defiantly and my feelings wavered dangerously. Yunho… if only he knew that he was the one that I really want…
“Hmph. So you want to get me enticed too? Was that what you wanted from the beginning? To get the most popular people to like you, is that it?” he said, fueling his own hate.
Right now, I feel like I really can’t stand Yunho blaming me for things that I didn’t do. If he isn’t going to end this conversation, then I will; whether somebody will get hurt or not.
“You know… if people like me. Then I must be doing something right” I told him, looking at him dead in the eyes “and… I also know that if somebody likes me and helps me unconditionally, it must be that they’re genuine about it. I mean, unlike you, I have nothing to offer them. I don’t have any money and I don’t have fame either. Heck, I even have the bullies after me”
Yunho gave me a disbelieved laugh and looked away, shaking his head with a smirk.
I got up, not taking my eyes off his. I don’t want to hurt him, but this can’t go on forever. I guess we’ll all have to suffer in the end.
“And… I find that whether somebody likes me or not, it’s personal. It’s the bond between me and that person, not you. Feelings can’t be forced, Yunho. I can’t force them to like me nor can I force you to like me. But… I sincerely hope you will…” I said and exited the class, not daring to look back.
I hope he’s not as hurt as I am right now…
~ ~ ~
I sat down for lunch, unhappy. Junsu didn’t look happy either and both IU and Changmin just looked awkward, sitting next to us.
“So… I’m guessing things didn’t go well back there?” IU said, looking uncomfortable asking me the question. I bit back the horrible feeling that I felt in inside.
“Nope” I said. We started eating and nobody spoke for a little while.
“Hey, how about we all stay while the others go to the road trip this Friday and have some fun? Just the four of us?” Changmin suggested, smiling sheepishly.
“Yea! … that would be fun!” IU also added, smiling tentatively at us. I looked at Junsu who looked like a sad puppy, head resting on the table, not touching his food.
“Naw… you guys go… I don’t think hanging out is the cure for me…” I told them and patted Junsu on the head “you should bring him along though and try to cheer him up” I told the two of them. I then leaned closer to IU and Changmin so that Junsu wouldn’t hear what I was about to say “I don’t think Junsu knows yet, but I’m pretty sure that Yoochun really likes him…” I whispered. They both looked at each other, smiling.
“Okay then hyung. We’ll make sure that Junsu has fun during the trip” Changmin said suggestively.
“Yep. We’ll make sure he doesn’t get lonely” IU added smiling in a creepy way.
Junsu wasn’t listening, he just kept on being in his own little bubble of sadness, pouting.
“Okay, you guys do that” I said, rolling my eyes with a smile. It’s moment like these that make me feel not so sad; to know that I have such good friends around me.
Suddenly, Yoochun popped out of nowhere. As soon as he did, Junsu gave him a longing look, like if he was looking at a toy he couldn’t have.
“Hey Jaejoong? Can we have a talk?” Yoochun said, to my surprise; I was sure he’d want a talk with Junsu. Right after Yoochun said that he needed to talk to me, Junsu looked away, dissapointed and sad.
“Alright” I said to Yoochun and got up. I patted Junsu on the shoulder before following Yoochun to wherever he was leading me.
“Jaejoong-sshi” Yoochun said, which surprised me again. He never used any honorifics with me before.
“What’s up?”
“I heard what happened between you and Yunho in class. Sorry about that” Yoochun apologized.
“Oh… that?... It’s alright” I said, trying to brush it off.
“All I told him was to be nicer to you and that you didn’t do anything bad, but he just got mad and-“
“Yoochun” I said, not wanting to listen.
“Hm…?” he said, looking at me confusedly.
“It’s okay” I said, again.
“Oh…”
“Yeah…”
We stood there silently. I expected him to leave first, but I guess not. Maybe he wants to know about Junsu?
“About …”he started, slightly embarassed.
“…Junsu?” I finished for him with a grin.
“Yes, how did you-“
“He’ll be going to the road trip this Friday. You should go too” I said. It took him a few seconds to get what I was trying to say, but he ended up giving me a large goofy grin when he understood.
“…Thanks…!” he said, blushing slightly, probably realizing that I knew slightly more than what he thought.
“Yep, good luck with that” I said, giving him a casual encouraging tap on the shoulder and left.
~ ~ ~
After school, I got asked to tutor again. I expected it to be Siwon again, but no. It was the contrary.
“Honeyyyyy~!!!” Heechul said dramatically, rushing to me before I even got out of the car. He was wearing some kind of hideous pink poofy pyjama thing. His hair was tied into a ponytail. Seriously, this dude looks like a girl. He gave me a big bear hug. Ew…a gay bear hug…
“Um…?” I said, trying to break free.
“I missed you, dear~! Oh! And your hair, what happened to my darling creation?!” he exclaimed in a high pitch scream.
“Um…?” I said again, actually not knowing how to react to Heechul’s… outburst.
“Come in quickly so that I can fix this horrendous mess on your head!” he said, shooing me to get in his house.
Sigh.
~ ~ ~
I sat on the haircut chair and he immediately started fiddling with my hair.
“So I guess no studying today?” I asked, rolling my eyes. Heechul burst out in laughter at my words.
“Of course not, silly~!” he said matter-of-factly and also very very gayly.
“Hm. Lemme guess you called me over to help you with Siwon?” I asked, making a bored face.
He gasped, fakely offended.
“Well! Is it impossible for me to miss a friend from time to time?” he said, looking fakely shocked, a hand at his chest, the other one holding an invisible tray.
I raised an eyebrow.
“No really! I did miss you!” he said innocently.
“And…” I continued.
“…want help with Siwon…” he finally admitted “ugh… you’re no fun. So unfabulous…” he muttered, flipping his hair with indignation.
“That’s more like it. Well. The good news is that Siwon doesn’t hate you” I said.
“Well duh! You can’t hate me, okay? I’m-“
“Fabulous, yes I know, but stop that. I’m talking” I told him and he shut up, seeing clearly from my reflection in the mirror that I was in no mood to be gay in more than one way.
“The bad news is that his dad thinks that people like you should be killed” I said.
Heechul froze, his jaw dropping in shock.
“Hoh-my-gawd… like you mean… he’s one of those…” Heechul said with a pre-bitchfit face.
“Well, just feel lucky that Siwon didn’t turn out like that” I told him nonchalantly.
“But like… oh my god, hello? Twenty-first century, people!” he complained to God-knows-who. No… not God. Um… to whom it may concern. Yeah, that’s more like it.
“Well, there isn’t much you can do about it” I told Heechul who looked uber pissed and insulted.
“Well… this… this is…” he searched the word for it.
“Unfabulous?” I suggested.
“No!” No? “This is more that just unfabulous! This is mother-bitch-effin-bullshit, okay?! I swear, like people like that should just go to effin HELL and die and burn and get their inners fed to hellhounds, okay?!” he exploded, throwing his arms around crazily.
His hair got messed up too.
I looked at him with wide, freaked out eyes. I could see them since I was staring at a mirror and dammmn, I looked really freaked.
“Um yep. His dad would wannnnt to kill you” I said, raising both eyebrows.
~ ~ ~
I went back home after convincing Heechul to go to that roadtrip since Siwon was going. I thought he would give up after I told him about Siwon’s dad, but no. It seemed to have made him even more determined into wanting Siwon and turning his dad into a rainbow-friendly guy.
Heechul is one scary dude…
Well, tomorrow is Thursday; one day before the roadtrip. Hopefully everybody will have fun…
Cause I know I won’t…
~ ~ ~