Mar 16, 2005 20:17
My mind has been off in another world lately. ive kinda gave up on everything. life bmx school, everything. i dono i havent been motivated to do anything. i wake each morning dreading that i have to get on the big yellow thing with wheels we call a bus. that bus is the transportation to hell. that all milwaukie is, hell. theres nothing good at all coming from MHS. seems like everyone just likes to back stab you or betray you. alot of people talk behind your back or when your half asleep. IE; taras after-semi party. stuff like this has just built up to the point where im going to explode. seems like i need a best friend but once i think im getting that best friend some one comes and takes over. its cool..... not. people flip me sh!t like it doesnt hurt me or that i can just laugh at or whatever but it hurts. im sounding like a big giant pussy but i could careless what people are thinking right now... all i know that everyone who i think is my friend has talked behind my back and i always find out ALWAYS!.
i really want to get away frome milwaukie and get a better life. washington i want to move to washington. i love everything about it there. im going to make sure i live there no matter what. if i have to pack my stuff and run away i will do it...
Life would be soo much easier if everyone who doubts you just stoped talking to you. i need friends who push me to do new stuff. not bad stuff but good stuff. getting good grades progressing my riding skillz. SOMETHING!!! but the friends dont do nothing. what ever im done for sure. done complaining
Later Dayz