(no subject)
ok so im just not in the greatest mood now, being in a bad mood before was ok i could deal(sort of) but now since friday, since adymn, i just cant function right anymore. I hate it. I miss adymn so much already it was so hard to be at the wake today. I started off walking in trying to hold back my tears, then it just started to get worse as i looked at hadens face when he was pointing out funny pictures of him and his brother, then i just lost control when i went to kneal and say a prayer at adymns casket. i just hate this feeling right now. i just dont knw what to do...
so friday night i went to the thing at the church for him, it started off ok talking about memories of him, then some random guy who was there who didnt even know adymn or the situation turned it into a friggin thearopy session which wasnt cool at all. then some girl tried to turn the whole thing into being about her cuz she was trying to explain where adymn was coming from, and why he felt that he had to kill himself, and started saying how she went through bad time and that she's bipoler, im like wow fuckin bitch its not about you and you dont even know the kid so shut up, then after that i walked up tot the high school w/ sean adam n, jay tutle, and ben knight.
Saterday did absolutly nothing at all except work which was ok i guess, the girls that i work with made it a lil easier for me to be there and put a smile on my face, i love amy, and shaunah, and jade, and the people who dont work there like kaykay, garrett, russle, sean, jen, allie, you guys just made me feel so much better, even though things arent going to be the same.
Then sunday, i went to topsfield fair with sean, russle, and morrisey. Id have to say that topsfield fair is going down the drain. too expensive for everything the games are all riged. then i didnt want to go home yet, so sean was like just sleep over my house with rss, and morrisey i was like yeah like thats guna happen , but his mom and my paretns said it was ok so i was like cool, and i didnt even have to sleep in a seperat e room it was pretty cool. But me and sean didnt get to sleep till about 4 in the morning i had to leave by 10 lol, then wehen i got home today i went to sleep again at 11 nd didnt wake up till 1:30 and i never take naps lol. well this was really long so im gunna go now ill ttyall later peace
Lesley