Woke from a fitfull sleep
I woke up at ten and should have stayed awake. but I didn't when I fall back to sleep in the morning I have the most vivid and typically disturbing dreams. I'm not entirely sure what they were all about but I know one was me the day of my last classes of college. I felt my heart racing and I woke up crying, so scared. I don't know why this should all freak me out so much. I like to think I'm some what brave but I am more scared and unsure of what I am doing then I have ever been in my life. and of course there are no end of people asking me what my plans are. So I tell them something different every time "I'm joining the circus" "moving to India" "going to law school" "I'm going to be an astronaut!" I kid but I think I come up with all of these different career ideas because I'm not entirely sure how to be a theater artist or that there is a point. so where to go from here? no idea.
Oh, and on top of that I had a major crisis of faith yesterday. it's kind of difficult to explain but it had me dieing alone wondering what was the point and who knew "truth." So all and all a busy week.
Oh, and on top of that I had a major crisis of faith yesterday. it's kind of difficult to explain but it had me dieing alone wondering what was the point and who knew "truth." So all and all a busy week.