Fall
Summer is officially over... has been for a few weeks now. I was in this slump for a while, writing-wise. It's pretty much over now. I think a change in the season helped. People are out again, parties are going on late into the night, lots of shows. We opened for Arrah and the Ferns last night, on a tuesday. The crowd was a little thinner than I'd hoped, but it was a good show anyway.
It's weird, since I haven't updated this thing much this year, it documents random days/weeks/months in a longer period of time. What I mean is that I've actually been keeping my new years resolution, which is cool. All I asked of myself was to take the things I do more seriously, and in the process, weed out things that I don't need, or at least minimize them. And I have been. I guess I'm kind of proud of myself. I spend a lot of time thinking... an embarrassing amount, actually. But it's usually about what I need to do. It's reflective, yeah, but focused towards the future. So I don't always give myself a pat on the back for getting where I am, it's always about where I'm going. Planning, planning, planning. It's given me a sense of purpose, but it doesn't really make me feel good. It just keeps me from losing my shit. I guess some people get way into their jobs, or feeling secure, money, drugs, sex, pyramid schemes or cults to get that feeling. It doesn't make you feel good, you just need it. For me, I need structure. I don't crave chaos or drama. I kinda hate them. So no matter what I do, I'll always be this cautious person.
- But I'm coming out of that a little, by committing to a life path (if you will). Because being overly cautious, I've found, slows you down a lot. Not being able to take chances leaves you holding your dick (if you will).
so yeah, go me. Seems like my plans are working.
It's weird, since I haven't updated this thing much this year, it documents random days/weeks/months in a longer period of time. What I mean is that I've actually been keeping my new years resolution, which is cool. All I asked of myself was to take the things I do more seriously, and in the process, weed out things that I don't need, or at least minimize them. And I have been. I guess I'm kind of proud of myself. I spend a lot of time thinking... an embarrassing amount, actually. But it's usually about what I need to do. It's reflective, yeah, but focused towards the future. So I don't always give myself a pat on the back for getting where I am, it's always about where I'm going. Planning, planning, planning. It's given me a sense of purpose, but it doesn't really make me feel good. It just keeps me from losing my shit. I guess some people get way into their jobs, or feeling secure, money, drugs, sex, pyramid schemes or cults to get that feeling. It doesn't make you feel good, you just need it. For me, I need structure. I don't crave chaos or drama. I kinda hate them. So no matter what I do, I'll always be this cautious person.
- But I'm coming out of that a little, by committing to a life path (if you will). Because being overly cautious, I've found, slows you down a lot. Not being able to take chances leaves you holding your dick (if you will).
so yeah, go me. Seems like my plans are working.