Spread your wings and fly
I have wings.
Okay, maybe not like that...but I feel it. Every few minutes I stretch them, spread them out from my body like a dark angel, I close my eyes and feel the feathers ruffle, shining with little rainbows.
I feel myself changed. I feel amazing.
I've been this way for six months. It's not a short term change.
I have re-invented myself.
I see areas that need work still, sure, but I'm confident that these areas can be corrected.
I just had two books placed in my hands. One is "Reflections of Helen" by my uncle. My grandmother sent it to me, with his signature and a message inside. He's written everything I've been working on in the past six months.
The other book is the Gabriel Method. Another type of self help book. It's got some pretty spiffy meditations/affirmations in it that I'm really enjoying.
Maybe I ought to write one when I've completed my transformation. ::laughs::
I wish I could just...bottle the feeling I'm feeling now and give it to all of my friends. I wish everyone could feel as wonderful, impassioned and strong as I feel now. I'd give it away to everyone...because if the world felt like I do on a daily basis, that'd put an end to wars, drugs, everything. I wish that other people could feel it when I feel my heart, my body, swell with pride, joy, excitement, and the possibilities.
I need to learn to follow my heart...I WANT to become a manga-ka! I want to be thin!
There's NOTHING holding me back from these things! NOTHING!
My little ecstatic icon is bouncing with my music...:;raises an eyebrow::
Everyone's probably tired of hearing me talk about it. ::Grins:: But I'm not sorry for doing it. I feel great. This is me, this is me every day.
I'm not going to go back to who I was.
I'm going to celebrate who I am instead.
Okay, maybe not like that...but I feel it. Every few minutes I stretch them, spread them out from my body like a dark angel, I close my eyes and feel the feathers ruffle, shining with little rainbows.
I feel myself changed. I feel amazing.
I've been this way for six months. It's not a short term change.
I have re-invented myself.
I see areas that need work still, sure, but I'm confident that these areas can be corrected.
I just had two books placed in my hands. One is "Reflections of Helen" by my uncle. My grandmother sent it to me, with his signature and a message inside. He's written everything I've been working on in the past six months.
The other book is the Gabriel Method. Another type of self help book. It's got some pretty spiffy meditations/affirmations in it that I'm really enjoying.
Maybe I ought to write one when I've completed my transformation. ::laughs::
I wish I could just...bottle the feeling I'm feeling now and give it to all of my friends. I wish everyone could feel as wonderful, impassioned and strong as I feel now. I'd give it away to everyone...because if the world felt like I do on a daily basis, that'd put an end to wars, drugs, everything. I wish that other people could feel it when I feel my heart, my body, swell with pride, joy, excitement, and the possibilities.
I need to learn to follow my heart...I WANT to become a manga-ka! I want to be thin!
There's NOTHING holding me back from these things! NOTHING!
My little ecstatic icon is bouncing with my music...:;raises an eyebrow::
Everyone's probably tired of hearing me talk about it. ::Grins:: But I'm not sorry for doing it. I feel great. This is me, this is me every day.
I'm not going to go back to who I was.
I'm going to celebrate who I am instead.