dead animals by the side of the road
i seem to remember a time when waking up was hard the nights went on forever but now more and more i find myself sleeping through my days while im awake. i dont close my eyes anymore i just daydream. without warning i wake up every morning around 9 even if i went to bed at 3 or 4. its a cycle. the chain must be broken i need more than 5 hours of sleep a night. as each day becomes more and more foggy i find myself drifting further and further into madness im guessing i dont feel close to anyone i once cared for and they to me. the need for a change of scenery has become so clear it almost hurts everytime i think about maryland. the only thing that keeps my mind off of this nonsense is to cloud myself with substance and hope i can get a full nights sleep tomorrow but it never comes. i guess its kinda of like an eclipse slowly trying to spot me out cover eventually ill probably die but until then ill forever be in the dungeon i call home hiding from those who no longer come to my door------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ndb