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So much has been going on the last couple of days. I try to work everything in my head thats been done and said and try to find solutions and ways to make things right, but its all just a mess still. I don't know whats to become of the fantastic four. I hate to think this will break everyone up and I pray to god it doesn't. I want everyone to be happy, but I have to realise that not everyone is going to get what they want. I guess things couldn't be as good as they were forvever. Somethings were truly inevitable. I could see it comming a while ago, but things just had to take thier course. I'm really trying to not get too involved unlike some people because i know being who they are they're not going to listen to anyone and have to figure things out on their own. It's the only way they learn. At first i had some concern for the one person who has always stuck by my side, but now i know she is willing to try and get her life back on track with me rather than working against me. I have deffinitly learned a lot from everything that has happened and have been able to see things from other's points of view. For so long i felt that the move of my life wasn't understanding me, but now i realise that i also wasn't understanding him. And now that I have experienced somewhat the position he was in, i have more respect for what he's trying to do and am more willing to work with him. I want to get my life together without depending on bad habits and now i realise how bad that habit was getting. I never really though about it as choosing it over the one I love, but now i see that was exactly what I was doing and it feels like shit when your the person feeling like your being picked second. My love is the #1 thing in my life right now and nothing will ever come between us. But i feel like once again I am just rambling, so this is where I'm cutting myself off. Night.
p.s. pics coming soon. can't get the software going for my new digi.