pray for me
My room smells like ass. Or maybe just the inside of my nose. Dixon smells like ass… I’ve been meaning to update for a while mr.journal but as I said before I like chocolate cake more than I like you.
Went to a (home town) party tonight… Saw old hs acquaintances [Going to and after]. I love my hs friends that I didn’t go to hs with. They are all older than me though. They have lives; school, work, places, activities. I want to get a tattoo. I had an Olympic swim instructor with a shark above his ankle, since then I’ve wanted one. I like small scratchy line art person or symbols. I can’t decide where I would put it though [ankle, foot, above ankle]. I’m very curious what the E in Laura E. Hartman stands for, or even if that is her real name. I’m guessing Elizabeth.
I love meeting new people but it’s easier to be myself around old friends. I don’t feel like having sex any more but the sex I do have is great. Being a bugs midnight snack is getting old. School is gay. I don’t understand sac girls yet. They aren’t responsive to me at all. The guys are a lot cooler though. I love davis. Girls don’t assume you just want sex so they don’t act so distant/uninterested. Davis is starting up Monday… I hope to do a lot of partying this year/meeting lots of new people.
I bought a gps receiver for my laptop the other day, i have no real use for it. I’ve been wasting money like crazy lately. My job interview is in a couple days. I hope I get it and don’t have to work Friday or Saturday nights. Them there are partying nights biotch! I need an ego boost; I can’t convince myself that girls that I find attractive are interested in me. I’m gaining weight… great hu? Where is the real me? (hi, fake Kristian!) The good old real Kristian came out and said “hi” tonight.
I’ve given up on two girls that I didn’t really know but may have liked. I think I could have been happy with either. I love dorky girls but it’s hard to find them in social situations. Ie. Dogs birthday parties, I found a bottle of vodka parties. -chuckles-
I have a bad habit of asking girls if they want to hang out even if I have no desire to be with them. It’s rare if any says yes. … starting to feel like my perverted brother …
If you ever meet an el Salvadorian named Marco; he’s a great guy and you should love him.