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almost every single second of every day has ups and downs. some people have really high highs and really low lows. but its times where you've come so far, when your hands are slipping and you're on the edge and finally giving up, that you're rewarded. and before you go to sleep at night you can breathe in and feel peace and happiness. and when you exhale you let out all the doubts in your mind. you let out the idea that things can't fix themselves, that somehow your wounds won't be able to heal. because that's wrong. life has a funny way of solving things. but it works out. maybe not the way you want it to, maybe not the way you expect it, maybe things won't be exactly how they were months ago. but we grow up and we change. we change from these experiences. we change from these nights we go to bed with tears in our eyes because we don't feel good enough or we've let a friend down. we go to bed smiling from a night we'll someday forget, but at the moment, it's the greatest night of our lives. and it changes us. no one is permanent. and sometimes people never accept change, and they are dragged into it unwillingly. sometimes things change at the most inconvenient awful time. sometimes they change for the good of everyone around you and inside you're filled with butterflies for days because not a thing is going wrong. i dont know anything about life. but when i see how far i've come as a person, i smile. and im content with who i am. maybe some people aren't, maybe some people wish i was still someone else. but i can't change what has changed me. i'm moving forward and not looking back with any regret. my friends and i are going to get back on track. my family is always going to be insanely different than my friends families. but i love it. and im drunk right now and its 1 in the morning. if anyone reads that, tell me if it makes sense cause i have way too much a.d.d. to go back.