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I feel ill, not physically but mentally.
I'm drained and tired of the fight i'm never going to win.
I need to get my head sorted.
These meds are not helping me anymore.
They haven't for a while now and all the stuff that's happening in my life is not helping me either.
She away out again. Of course i don't mind her doing so but i wanted to talk with her on the phone.
Somehow everyone gets the idea i'm being aggressive or ... well just basically a bastard to Ross, which i'mnot being. If it looks like i am then i'm sorry but i don't mean to do it and if i am, i don't see that i am.
I have no beef with Ross. Why would i?
We need to sort outour relationship, andsoon. It's becoming... Dry. We can't talk for very long on the ophone anymore and when we are together we do the same things day in and day out.
Money being tight right now is not helping matters but i wish she'd let me know what i can do to help things.
I'm beginning to see that i was maybe never meant to be with anyone. Every single relationship i have ever been is has screwed up at some point because of me.
I need sleep. Time to think and rest.
I'm seeing her tomorrow night. I'll see what happens.
I'm drained and tired of the fight i'm never going to win.
I need to get my head sorted.
These meds are not helping me anymore.
They haven't for a while now and all the stuff that's happening in my life is not helping me either.
She away out again. Of course i don't mind her doing so but i wanted to talk with her on the phone.
Somehow everyone gets the idea i'm being aggressive or ... well just basically a bastard to Ross, which i'mnot being. If it looks like i am then i'm sorry but i don't mean to do it and if i am, i don't see that i am.
I have no beef with Ross. Why would i?
We need to sort outour relationship, andsoon. It's becoming... Dry. We can't talk for very long on the ophone anymore and when we are together we do the same things day in and day out.
Money being tight right now is not helping matters but i wish she'd let me know what i can do to help things.
I'm beginning to see that i was maybe never meant to be with anyone. Every single relationship i have ever been is has screwed up at some point because of me.
I need sleep. Time to think and rest.
I'm seeing her tomorrow night. I'll see what happens.