so, moving along...
I perpetually continue to fuck myself. I guess its some psychological thing where I can't allow myself to be happy...either way, its getting really old...
On another note, life is about to make a turn for the better I think. I'm moving to philly rather than back to chattanooga...haven't told anyone yet, I'm sure there will be a lot of very unthrilled people.
I have to do what's best for me though...I can't keep living for everyone else and that's what I've been doing since I can remember. If they don't understand that, there isn't much else to hang on to anyway.
I do not have a way with words tonight. I know what I'm trying to say but the words aren't coming out properly. I just want to live normally. I can't remember if I ever have.
On another note, life is about to make a turn for the better I think. I'm moving to philly rather than back to chattanooga...haven't told anyone yet, I'm sure there will be a lot of very unthrilled people.
I have to do what's best for me though...I can't keep living for everyone else and that's what I've been doing since I can remember. If they don't understand that, there isn't much else to hang on to anyway.
I do not have a way with words tonight. I know what I'm trying to say but the words aren't coming out properly. I just want to live normally. I can't remember if I ever have.