47 days till the move... can u tell im excited?
47days...
i've been pretty down lately. the thought that in 67 days i was supposed to be a mommy.... the thought that i should be big and pregnant and have swollen feet... its depressing. And as much as i try to block out those thoughts I dont want to. I want to wonder what would life be like right now if i was still pregnant. I actually got out of bed and walked into my roomates room at like 2 in the morning because i was dreaming that a baby was crying... my baby. Im just glad neither my roomie or Evan woke up for that.
and it seems like im the only one who remembers that i was supposed to have a baby in May. I know im not.... its just how it seems.
no one talks about it...
i dunno.
sorry to put this on y'all.
i've been pretty down lately. the thought that in 67 days i was supposed to be a mommy.... the thought that i should be big and pregnant and have swollen feet... its depressing. And as much as i try to block out those thoughts I dont want to. I want to wonder what would life be like right now if i was still pregnant. I actually got out of bed and walked into my roomates room at like 2 in the morning because i was dreaming that a baby was crying... my baby. Im just glad neither my roomie or Evan woke up for that.
and it seems like im the only one who remembers that i was supposed to have a baby in May. I know im not.... its just how it seems.
no one talks about it...
i dunno.
sorry to put this on y'all.