...give me a few hours, I'll have this all sorted out...
Dear Journal,
I'm sorry I have neglected you for so long! I have been super busy and I havnt really felt like updating. Ive done some things that I am not proud of lately and I wasnt sure that I wanted to talk about it. I still dont want to talk about it. Ive been a real bitch to Kara lately because I've been so unhappy with myself and with EVERYTHING.
I get to see Kara this weekend!!! She is playing at Wake Forest Saturday, so im driving her parents down to see the game. I cant wait to see her but at the same time its going to be sad because I wont be able to spend time with her. I MIGHT get to talk to her a little before and after the game. I think the next time I'll get to see her is in mid-October :( I just need to lay in her arms, then I'll know everything is going to be fine. Even after what has happened she still loves me so much, and it makes me feel so good. I love her more than i could ever make her understand. I just dont have the words to tell her, but I think that she knows it. Next week will be 9 months. Thats amazing to me, it has been so hard at times but in the end, we when we can be together, our relationship is going to be so strong because we have been thru so much already! I cant wait til we have a house of our own, and we can start our lives together! Maddison Avalees Copeland...sounds good huh!!! :) Thats what I want to name my first daughter. Avalees was my grandmothers name, its pronounced Ava-lease. Shes having the kids...haha! I want my kids to be as beautiful as she is!
Oh well, I will try and write more tomorrow baby, I know you live for this. I will try to "entertain" you some more tomorrow!
I'm sorry I have neglected you for so long! I have been super busy and I havnt really felt like updating. Ive done some things that I am not proud of lately and I wasnt sure that I wanted to talk about it. I still dont want to talk about it. Ive been a real bitch to Kara lately because I've been so unhappy with myself and with EVERYTHING.
I get to see Kara this weekend!!! She is playing at Wake Forest Saturday, so im driving her parents down to see the game. I cant wait to see her but at the same time its going to be sad because I wont be able to spend time with her. I MIGHT get to talk to her a little before and after the game. I think the next time I'll get to see her is in mid-October :( I just need to lay in her arms, then I'll know everything is going to be fine. Even after what has happened she still loves me so much, and it makes me feel so good. I love her more than i could ever make her understand. I just dont have the words to tell her, but I think that she knows it. Next week will be 9 months. Thats amazing to me, it has been so hard at times but in the end, we when we can be together, our relationship is going to be so strong because we have been thru so much already! I cant wait til we have a house of our own, and we can start our lives together! Maddison Avalees Copeland...sounds good huh!!! :) Thats what I want to name my first daughter. Avalees was my grandmothers name, its pronounced Ava-lease. Shes having the kids...haha! I want my kids to be as beautiful as she is!
Oh well, I will try and write more tomorrow baby, I know you live for this. I will try to "entertain" you some more tomorrow!