A return to patterns

[werik]

Life has been pretty good ever since I left for vacation and came back. After leaving in some of the worst spirits I had been in for months, the trip really helped me put my life back in prospective. I wish I could attribute it to the mindless euphoria that one usually enters when on vacation, my time was spent more making sure everyone had/heard/knew everything that was important so that I was sort of manager of the vacation. But that was all okay. All of it made me think about the role of family, friends, and ideology in so many seemingly unimportant ways that I hardly could piece it all together at the time and would be difficult to convey here. It helped breathe more life into my relationship with my family, even Taylor who was further away than anyone. It also helped me realize how selfish I was being in certain aspects of my life and what happens when you let thoughts dwell for too long in your head alone. Coming back was great because it showed me some of the predictable natures of people that I have known for many years, but it was better for the unpredictable things that I saw as well: things that showed me greater truths in these people.

I know that this post is extraordinarily vague, and doesn't mean anything to anyone else, but I just felt compelled to write it.