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now that ive been in havenwyck twice, ive came to relaize that we all take things for granted WAY too much.
Even simple things. like, fresh air, school, friends, PILLOWS.
one of my staff at havenwyck said something that really got to me. he said "Life is like a rollercoaster. you go up,up,up, very slowly, you reach the top, and you go down so fast. The next thing you know, its over."
I dont know why, but that really touched me.
If you think about it, life really does fly by. Think about how fast everyday goes by. well, at least for me it does. you wake up, do the same crap everyday, then its over. some days are different, weather its going to a really sweet show, or being put in a mental hospital, but most days are all the same.
sure it will change once we get out of school, but then what? you go to work, and do the same things over and over everyday.
im not trying to sound depressing, im trying to make my point.
we all need to realiaze how we spend all those days.
are you just going to sit around everyday smoking pot and getting drunk? or do you want to make something with your life?
i know im starting to change how i think. i dont want to be one of those people who sit around, smoking pot, and doing nothing every day. i already am, and that upsets me. but im going to make something of myself. just wait and see. i just need to make a few decisions before i get there.
now dont get me wrong, im not going to completly quit smoking, i just dont want to do it EVERY SINGLE DAY. because seriosly, what do i do besides get high or get drunk, then clean my house? i dont want to be that person anymore.
just think about that if it at all applies to you.
its time to make a few changes, and mend a VERY important friendship before its to late and shes gone. i mean, i already feel like she is, but i know shes not. when i was in the real hospital, my mom kept asking me why i was so upset lately, and id say her name and just start crying. we tried to talk about it three times, but i couldnt do it. id just keep crying, and crying. i need her in my life. i love you jaclyn.
Even simple things. like, fresh air, school, friends, PILLOWS.
one of my staff at havenwyck said something that really got to me. he said "Life is like a rollercoaster. you go up,up,up, very slowly, you reach the top, and you go down so fast. The next thing you know, its over."
I dont know why, but that really touched me.
If you think about it, life really does fly by. Think about how fast everyday goes by. well, at least for me it does. you wake up, do the same crap everyday, then its over. some days are different, weather its going to a really sweet show, or being put in a mental hospital, but most days are all the same.
sure it will change once we get out of school, but then what? you go to work, and do the same things over and over everyday.
im not trying to sound depressing, im trying to make my point.
we all need to realiaze how we spend all those days.
are you just going to sit around everyday smoking pot and getting drunk? or do you want to make something with your life?
i know im starting to change how i think. i dont want to be one of those people who sit around, smoking pot, and doing nothing every day. i already am, and that upsets me. but im going to make something of myself. just wait and see. i just need to make a few decisions before i get there.
now dont get me wrong, im not going to completly quit smoking, i just dont want to do it EVERY SINGLE DAY. because seriosly, what do i do besides get high or get drunk, then clean my house? i dont want to be that person anymore.
just think about that if it at all applies to you.
its time to make a few changes, and mend a VERY important friendship before its to late and shes gone. i mean, i already feel like she is, but i know shes not. when i was in the real hospital, my mom kept asking me why i was so upset lately, and id say her name and just start crying. we tried to talk about it three times, but i couldnt do it. id just keep crying, and crying. i need her in my life. i love you jaclyn.