Sometimes I do need a shove or punch in the arm.
Sometimes I really do need someone to join me or give me a big push. My motivation to do anything by myself seems to be at an all-time low. I have not stepped outside the house by myself at all this week, except for one party attended with MonsterMustDie and mutual friends and out to dinner with MonsterMustDie and neighbors. Between fatigue, hot flashes, and general low self esteem, I have talked myself out of doing everything. My attitude has been fully self-defeating. I have not stepped outside the house by myself at all this week, except for one party attended with MonsterMustDie and mutual friends and dinner with MonsterMustDie and neighbors. Between fatigue, hot flashes, and general low self esteem, I have talked myself out of doing everything this week.
On top of that, I am actually dreading my next temp gig, which I am avoiding many other things for since I am committed to it already, that is all the way out in Conyers. Since being burned by Graphic Industries at the job I dropped everything to do in Smyrna, which was a hard commute - especially in the evening returning from work - I truly do not want to take any work that requires that much of me for so little. I am doing this more to keep a good relationship with the Temp company who placed me in this 2-month gig starting at the end of this month than for myself. I foresee this position being a painful one that will best end quickly, although I need the income.
Healthwise:
The prescription I got for my nose healed everything in just a few days.
We both had some digestive problems after eating shrimp at one of my favorite Chinese restaurants last week. Not knowing MonsterMustDie had issues with the food as well, I thought it was a UTI because the at-home test came out very positive for leukocytes. I'm still on antibiotics for that but wondering if I should discontinue use of them now that I feel better and knowing my room mate had similar issues that seem to have cleared up on their own (I haven't asked for details).