phonecall epiphany
Ok, So I really am an asshole. I think we all figured that out a long time ago, that i treat people like shit. I don't mean to, but we all know the road to hell is paved with good intentions. Someone basically slapped me in the face a few minutes ago when i was feeling lonely and about to cry myself to sleep with this fact, that I am a fucking shithead. No wonder i was fucking lonely, no one else even wants to be around me anymore. I see now why Katie won't answer my calls and Justine will barely even talk to me at school anymore. why Mike critisizes every thing i do when we go out, even when i'm just trying to have fun. All i want to do right now is say sorry about a lot of things, especially what katie said. Well sorry, I'm not going to apologize for anything right now. This is who i've become now. Yeah, I've changed. We all have. I NEVER claimed to be a perfect person-- YOU are the ones who made me out to be long ago. I'm not always like this, but seems like more often than not Anger dominates me. Not saying I'm going to give up and stay like this for the rest of my life- that'd be ridiculous and pathetic. Well. Time for Bed I guess. Don't even know what the point of this is anyways.... The worlds gonna end in 2012 btw.
My blood is bruised and borrowed
You thievin' bastards, you have
Turned my blood cold and bitter
Beat my compassion black and
Blue!
Hope this is what you wanted
Hope this is what you had in mind
'Cause this is what you're gettin'
"Ticks & Leeches" - Tool