Need some lovin'....
So. Im not sure how long this post is going to be, but it's about time I write it. Ive been having a really hard time coping with Matt and I's separation. Ive tried just about everything to get by with the time. Ive talked to a Chaplain and it made me feel somewhat better, but I still feel so deperessed. My therapist is trying to help me cope with the added stress by telling me to focus solely on the most important things which is my relationship with Matt. Ive been getting really sad lately. It's been 8 1/2 months now since Matt and I have lived with each other. And have seen each other about 26 days out of all those months. :-( I feel so cheated. Here I am, a faithful married woman and I have to be separated from the one thing I deserve not to be. I feel so lonely here even with my cat. I am not, by any means what-so-ever, having a hard time being faithful, just a hard time being happy. Sure I can go out with my Bahraini friends and have a good time for a short while, but it all comes back to the same thing, I come home to find my place empty. Thank God I didn't get a 5 bedroom/4 bath house like some of my co-workers. Id really be alone then, even with a dozen cats! I just want Matt here with me, to experience life in another country, to travel, see the world. I don't care how or at what expense. I have 9 1/2 months left to go. Hopefully I can talk the detailer into letting me leave a little earlier. I just can't stand being away from my husband any longer. I got married to be with my best friend, not be separated from him. I know that coming here to Bahrain was both Matt and I's decision, but we should be allowed to change that..right? We actually could have, until they stopped allowing dependents into Bahrain. They say it might be because of the election coming up. Im sure they are paranoid of just about anything at this point. The best I have found out so far is that Matt can come out here on a travelers visa and stay for 30 days, then drive across the bridge to Saudi, get his visa stamped and come back for another 30 days. He could also look for work at that time. Maybe this will help with everything. I just don't know what to do anymore. I just don't have that much support here keeping me going. Please help. Please pray.