I... kind of feel like an asshole idiot. So all that Cloverfield 'let's catch a movie' stuff actually meant 'let's catch a movie?'
Uh. I am not being very articulate. I'm still stunned.
You're really serious. God, I don't know what to say, but I can't just leave you hanging. What if it doesn't If we give it a try and it doesn't work out, will it be weird?
God, no. It's not that I feel like I owe you something, or that I don't... okay, how to put this. It's that...
Okay, you know how you have friends? And they've got little sisters. And it's all 'heeeey, *arm punch*' until you start hitting on the little sister, and then things get incredibly ugly?
Uh. So maybe not the best analogy. But it feels like that - like I'd be crossing some weird territorial boundary. Like your best friend's sister - except that it's just 'your best friend' in this case. Consequences for messing it up are still the same, though.
No, I understand. It's weird, it's always been weird. And I've had a lot more time to just be okay with the weirdness and how incredibly lame I am.
But you're right, it's still.. messy. My life usually is. And I know by me actually telling you we can't exactly act like it never happened, as much as I'd like to.
It'll be okay? Really. You're a great person, you're gorgeous, you're smart. If he can't handle it, well, his loss.
Yeah, yeah. Easy for me to say, I know. I'm not the one having to do it.
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[after a minute of banging her head against the wall]
I'm not sure it will. Yeah maybe his loss. I guess. I just don't want to ruin what we already have I guess.
..... right.
Not.
you.
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Not me what? I'm confused, you mean you can't talk to me about
[After scanning back up the page and seeing this.]
Oh.
Really?
(This is not me freaking out or getting upset. This is me being stunned. Really?)
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I'm going to go hide under a rock.
Yeah.
Really.
I just.
Yeah.
It's always been you.
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I... kind of feel like an asshole idiot. So all that Cloverfield 'let's catch a movie' stuff actually meant 'let's catch a movie?'
Uh. I am not being very articulate. I'm still stunned.
You're really serious. God, I don't know what to say, but I can't just leave you hanging. What if it doesn't If we give it a try and it doesn't work out, will it be weird?
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It's not your fault. I should have been more um..
Forth coming. You know. Like for the past.. 15 years. Great, I'm a creepy stalker.
I don't really know. I want to say no. But. You just never know. And it's not like.
I don't want you to do this just because.. you feel like you owe me or something. I know you don't feel the same way, and that's..
Fine.
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God, no. It's not that I feel like I owe you something, or that I don't... okay, how to put this. It's that...
Okay, you know how you have friends? And they've got little sisters. And it's all 'heeeey, *arm punch*' until you start hitting on the little sister, and then things get incredibly ugly?
Uh. So maybe not the best analogy. But it feels like that - like I'd be crossing some weird territorial boundary. Like your best friend's sister - except that it's just 'your best friend' in this case. Consequences for messing it up are still the same, though.
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No, I understand. It's weird, it's always been weird. And I've had a lot more time to just be okay with the weirdness and how incredibly lame I am.
But you're right, it's still.. messy. My life usually is. And I know by me actually telling you we can't exactly act like it never happened, as much as I'd like to.
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