It's so fluffy I'm gonna DIEEEEE~
This line has been the status of many of my friends on Facebook. See, the Despicable Me craze. It's either the Minions(!!!!!) or the kids.
I finally watched it yesterday and I laughed so much, my brother felt ashamed for sitting next to me. D: But well. He's just not that easily amused.
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Next week onwards I'll (finally) be working alone, without my buddy around. I had many stuff in my head about working alone, so...
I actually went to my favourite cafe after work just now, bought a latte and sat there with my notebook. And then I wrote down my job scope, what I am supposed to do for each of them, who to find if I have any problems, what to be careful of..... etc.
And then after I was done I felt much safer. For some reason. Maybe it's because I feel that things are 'documented' down, and it won't get lost somewhere in my brain.
I wonder if I'm being too ambitious/ eager. But then I reckoned that as time goes by I would lose the motivation to work, and start to drag my feet to work, submit sloppy work, go to work late and leave early, like some of the seniors who are almost 60 years old and has been in the same company for 30 years.
I'm working in the civil service, so if I do my work well, the community benefits, right...?
"So why not be ambitious/ eager now? If not now then when?" I thought. (When my will at that moment was stronger than usual)
And then I think about being disliked among my colleagues due to the eagerness. (They call such people Highlighters, people who like to highlight themselves) I can be a loner but I can't stand being a presence which people frown upon. I've been through that for 4 years straight (for a reason that wasn't my fault) and I think that's enough.
I wonder if the only way to be myself is to ignore how other people see me.
Because it's so hard. D:
Sometimes I really hope all that other people see of me is my shadow, and nothing else. So that there's nothing for them to talk about. All they see is a black 2D surface. Nothing interesting, no colour.
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Okay emo time over, bed time. Goodnight world. :)
I finally watched it yesterday and I laughed so much, my brother felt ashamed for sitting next to me. D: But well. He's just not that easily amused.
_____
Next week onwards I'll (finally) be working alone, without my buddy around. I had many stuff in my head about working alone, so...
I actually went to my favourite cafe after work just now, bought a latte and sat there with my notebook. And then I wrote down my job scope, what I am supposed to do for each of them, who to find if I have any problems, what to be careful of..... etc.
And then after I was done I felt much safer. For some reason. Maybe it's because I feel that things are 'documented' down, and it won't get lost somewhere in my brain.
I wonder if I'm being too ambitious/ eager. But then I reckoned that as time goes by I would lose the motivation to work, and start to drag my feet to work, submit sloppy work, go to work late and leave early, like some of the seniors who are almost 60 years old and has been in the same company for 30 years.
I'm working in the civil service, so if I do my work well, the community benefits, right...?
"So why not be ambitious/ eager now? If not now then when?" I thought. (When my will at that moment was stronger than usual)
And then I think about being disliked among my colleagues due to the eagerness. (They call such people Highlighters, people who like to highlight themselves) I can be a loner but I can't stand being a presence which people frown upon. I've been through that for 4 years straight (for a reason that wasn't my fault) and I think that's enough.
I wonder if the only way to be myself is to ignore how other people see me.
Because it's so hard. D:
Sometimes I really hope all that other people see of me is my shadow, and nothing else. So that there's nothing for them to talk about. All they see is a black 2D surface. Nothing interesting, no colour.
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Okay emo time over, bed time. Goodnight world. :)