Showing signs of wanting what I cant give...
WHY THE FUCK HAVENT YOU CALLED ME!
(you're never going to read this. But you should just call me and tell me. You hate me. and Never loved me. You should've never of made me believe you really cared about me. You shouldn't of let me do those things with you. I thought they meant something. I thought it was special but I was wrong. But I guess it's not your fault. You didn't make me fall in love with you. I let myself. and I'm just the fool that sits around hoping that you'll call me one day. and just let me know how you are doing. I'm sorry your cousin died. But you should've called me and I would've done what ever I could to make you not sad anymore.I hate how you get high all the time. I hate how you are one of the most beautiful boys that has ever given me the time of day. I hate how you loved I'm Sorry I'm leaving. I hate how to told me that you were so happy that night. I hate how you told me you didnt want me to leave your bed. I really hate you right now. If I come to see you are you going to pretend we never happened? Are we just friends. Was I just a person to play fuck fuck with? Goddamnit. I've wasted enough nights of tear and bleeding because of you. I pretend like you dont matter to me. But in all reality I can't get you off my mind somedays. and It hurts. I'm not going to make the same mistake this time..)
Damn that sounded really gay. I need so cut my face off now.
(you're never going to read this. But you should just call me and tell me. You hate me. and Never loved me. You should've never of made me believe you really cared about me. You shouldn't of let me do those things with you. I thought they meant something. I thought it was special but I was wrong. But I guess it's not your fault. You didn't make me fall in love with you. I let myself. and I'm just the fool that sits around hoping that you'll call me one day. and just let me know how you are doing. I'm sorry your cousin died. But you should've called me and I would've done what ever I could to make you not sad anymore.I hate how you get high all the time. I hate how you are one of the most beautiful boys that has ever given me the time of day. I hate how you loved I'm Sorry I'm leaving. I hate how to told me that you were so happy that night. I hate how you told me you didnt want me to leave your bed. I really hate you right now. If I come to see you are you going to pretend we never happened? Are we just friends. Was I just a person to play fuck fuck with? Goddamnit. I've wasted enough nights of tear and bleeding because of you. I pretend like you dont matter to me. But in all reality I can't get you off my mind somedays. and It hurts. I'm not going to make the same mistake this time..)
Damn that sounded really gay. I need so cut my face off now.