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I am so upset. I understand that though Chris and I both consider ourselves Wiccan, we have very different beliefs. And I'm cool with that. However, he doesn't seem to be. I'm trying to start a coven with some like-minded friends, and so far it's only been an idea that we all seem to agree might be good. But I've been looking for a group to celebrate beltane with (mayday for you rennies) and my friend susan suggested that this might be the perfect start for us. I agree, even though actually starting this is both scary and nerve-wracking. Chris, however, busted out with, "You can't celebrate beltane without a high priestess. besides, you don't even known any of the rituals. all you know is jumping over broomsticks." well that really hurt me. he always assumes that i know nothing, just because he's been practicing longer than i have. his style of worship/practice is so different from what i do, from what i believe, that for him to tell me that i can't celebrate a sabbat is tantamount to a slap in the face. Look, chris, i know your style has a lot of vampirism and black megic tendencies, but mine doesn't. nor do our friends' styles. so for you to tell me that all beltane rituals start with the bloodletting or it's not a real beltane ritual? fucking retarded. most traditions, including the eclectic path that I follow, do not use bloodletting in major rituals. If a person wants to add their own blood to a personal spell, then, fine, have at. But sabbats? NO! that's not right for me. and for you to fucking say to my face that ALL BELTANE RITUALS MUST START WITH THE BLOOD is completely fucked up. ARGH!
ok, i think my rant is over for now. at least this has helped me clear my head and think about the elements i DO want to include.
ok, i think my rant is over for now. at least this has helped me clear my head and think about the elements i DO want to include.