if u dont know me by now ull never know me

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i am my own worst enemy..

i wish i could open up so maybe i could get some of this shit out of my head. but i just cant open up i have so many insecurities and flaws to the point that im permanetly closed. I have sucha fear of having people discover the real me. cuz even me myself hate the 'real me'. im scared of the real me. cuz i know of what 'its' capable of. Poor danny had to be the victim of my psychotic/emo mood tonight. i owe him big. danny im sorry thank u for everything never meant to scare you. im sorry that im insane.

i dunno whats wrong with me. im so self conscious its ridiculous i literally look into the mirror and cry with extreme anger cuz i cant stand my own relfection. im hideous and i hate it. i hate my physical appearance but looking at my reflection i just see right past the face and i see the real person. the digsuting person ive become. and thats a beyond hideous person that i cant stand to see. let alone be.
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i feel great.
i feel fine.
actually i think..
im losing my mind.

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