Hope is around the corner Part3/?
TITLE: Hope is around the corner Part3/?
AUTHOR: wemwems
GENRE: AU
PAIRINGS: 2min, OnKey, JongKey for now :)
RATING: PG-13 to NC-17
SUMMARY: Lee Taemin isn't a normal 17 year old boy. The death of his family has given him a new insight to life, and he is on a mission to change the world. However, he didn't plan on falling in love with Choi Minho, his favourite Korean idol, who loves him more than life itself. But which is more important to him: Being with the one man who can give him a second chance of having a family, or his dream to make the world a better place? If only he could have both...
A/N: Sorry for those who disagree with Key's choice!! I don't know why I chose it, it just made the story flow xxx Oh and you guys are probably wondering why and how I update so often? Because I can't wait to find out what happens next XD
Minho POV
"Hi!" I saw awkwardly to Taemin. It just occurred to me that I had no idea what I was going to say. Being with him on the set was so different than out here in the real world.
"Hi." Taemin smiles shyly. Dammit those cheeks, I just want to chop them off and … wait no I don't chop them, I want to pinch them hard so he goes "Owww" and then I'll kiss them better. I realise that none of us has said anything for the past 30 seconds. "Wh.. What are you doing here?"
"Oh right. I just wanted to make sure you're okay, I mean you were pretty upset over at the studio."
"Well that happens every time. I get pretty emotional. I guess it would be easier if I was stronger, and could hide my emotions more easily. "
"Yeh.. I guess." Why can't I think of anything better to say? Why am I here again? Oh right, I want to comfort him. Quick Minho, say something comforting. "So, how was your day?" Oh my goodness. I don't even want to look at his face after asking that, but I'm sure he's looking at me like I'm mentally retarded. However, he replies as if it was a normal question.
"It was great. I love Korea, I haven't been here since, well since I last visited my family's grave." I hope I didn't upset him. Nothing's going right...
"Oh, well how long are you going to be in Korea?"
"Just for another week, then I'm going back to London." Only one week? And then he's gone? No way. Maybe I can find a way to keep him here. Should I steal his passport or something? "Do you want to come inside?"
"Huh?"
"Well we've been standing chatting outside my door for the past 5 minutes I thought we'd be more comfortable inside."
"Oh yeah, sure. Sounds good to me."
His apartment is small but cozy, with a small black sofa facing a TV, a cute little kitchen and then two doors leading to two rooms. I'm guess one's the bedroom and one's the bathroom.
"Nice place." I take a seat on the sofa
"Haha thanks. Can i get you a drink?"
I'm really thirsty.
"No thanks." Why can't I think straight when I'm with him? I'm the idol, but he seems completely calm. Well, it's not like he concerns himself with things like that anyway. He's way beyond that. Now I'm starting to think I'm way out of my league. Isn't It Key that he likes anyway?
"Minho."
I love the way he says my name, stressing the "h" with his British accent.
"Hm?"
"Thankyou for coming to check up on me. It feels nice to have a friend here in Korea, I haven't really had the chance to make any."
"Oh really, don't worry about it. I'm really concerned about you actually. You're only 17 and you're here in Korea alone? You don't know the area, you shouldn't be wondering about. Especially at night, there are some dangerous people around here. You know what I mean?" I didn't want to sound like an over concerned mother, that's Key's job. But once I opened my mouth, my mind couldn't filter what I was saying.
"I guess you're kind of right," he admits. "I know it's not 100% safe for me to be on my own out here, but I don't really have anyone to take care of me. It's been that way for 3 years now. I've kind of learnt to handle things on my own."
"That makes sense." Is all I could think of to say.
"Hmm."
There's a really awkward uncomfortable silence.
"So, what are you planning on doing tonight?" I finally ask him.
"Just resting. I've got an appointment with Chinchin radio tomorrow morning."
"Oh you're doing another broadcast?"
"Yep. I'm only here for a week I want to talk to as many people as possible."
I was worried. I didn't want him to start crying again without me being there.
"Well, do you mind if I come with you?"
Suddenly he starts to blush like crazy.
"Yeh that would be great."
Taemin POV
Minho Choi is sitting on my sofa. Eeeeeshh! I'm trying so hard to act calm, to seem cool and collected. But it's Minho. My favourite idol. Sitting on my sofa. Words can't describe how nervous I am right now. And the fact that he's acting weird makes it worse. I'm starting to wonder why he came here in the first place. Was he really concerned with me?
"Do you mind if I come with you?"
Oh, he wants to come with me to the radio station! Suddenly my face heats up. Does this mean he cares about me?
"Yeh that would be great." I'm aware of how much I'm blushing at the moment. I'm aware that he's aware. He's aware that I'm aware that he's aware.
"Good. What about tonight? Would you like to come to dinner with me? I could invite the rest of Shinee aswell?"
It's getting hard to tell whether Minho likes me, or is just concerned for me in a big brother way. I'll take either one, but if he really does like me, it would be… just… amazing.
Key POV
I heard a crash on the other side of the phone. "Omo! Are you okay?"
"Kibum. Are you really picking me? What about Jonghyun?"
"Onew, like I said, it's you."
"Why?"
"Do you really want to do this over the phone?"
"No. Where are you? I'm coming to you right now!"
"No need, I'm coming to you. You're in dorm right? I'm walking up the stairs."
Suddenly I hear a door swing open, and it sounds like an elephant wearing high heels is running down the stairs, tripping numerous times. I get nervous as the foot steps and foot trips get louder and louder, and then Onew is right in front of me. We stand there for a second, smiling at each other. If I had chosen Jonghyun, we'd be all over each other right away, but with Onew it's different. He takes a step towards me. He always does this. He takes a step, then waits for me to take one. Jonghyun would have just grabbed me. But my days of comparing the two are over. It's just me and Onew now. I take that step towards him, but instead of embracing me, he takes my hands in his. He brings one of my hands up to his face and rubs his cheek against it, like he's a cat. I start to giggle.
"Hehehe, Onew what are you doing?"
"I love the sound of you giggling like that."
For some reason this sends me in another fit of giggles.
"No really what are you doing?" I say, my inner diva starting to get impatient.
"I just can't believe it. This hand, is all mine." He says, and then kisses it.
He then takes another step towards me. He starts planting kisses on my cheeks sending me into another fit of giggles. "And these gorgeous cheeks are mine too."
He then runs his hands through my hair. "All mine. Mine, mine, mine." he repeats.
"Yours. Everything I am is yours." He stares into my eyes, as if he sees right through me. He takes one last step forward, closing the gap between his body and mine. Finally he's going to kiss me. But instead he just puts his forehead against mine again. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me in close. He closes his eyes and starts swaying. I feel silly because we're in the hallway, but I'm enjoying our closeness too much for me to say anything. He softly starts singing:
"Do you hear me
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying"
I hear footsteps coming up the stairs, but I don't care. I'm enjoying myself so much I could melt right here in his arms.
"Boy I hear you in my dreams
I hear your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard"
Suddenly I hear the footsteps stop, and then they start again, only they're going in the other direction. Can't people walk up and down stairs softly? I'm trying to listen to a love serenade over here!! I start to smell flowers even though there are none around. So this is love.
"I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday"
Wow, I really am lucky.
Jonghyun POV
I'm still in the park, walking around, waiting for Key to call me. I know he's going to pick me, I just know it. Suddenly my phone starts ringing. YES. This is it! My heart drops when I see it's Minho calling.
"What?"
"Nice to hear from you too."
I was not in the mood. "What do you want Minho I'm kind of busy."
"Oh. Sorry hyung. I just thought that the five of us could go out tonight to dinner with Taemin."
"Who's Taemin?"
"What hyung? You haven't seen the broadcast?"
"No I was gonna watch it tonight."
"Well now you don't have to. Meet Taemin tonight!"
"Are Onew and Key gonna be there?"
"We're all going!" I definitely want to see Key. Maybe he hasn't made up his mind yet. I just have to spend a little more time with him, and he'll see how much he loves me.
"Okay fine. Text me the time and address." I say and I hang up.
Maybe Key thought I was in dorm. Maybe he's waiting for me there. It's just a 15 minute walk, but 5 minutes if I sprint. Oh wait, I have this stupid cast on.
It still only ends up taking me 11 minutes to get there, plus I stop at the flower shop to buy an arrangement of red and white roses, Key's favourite. My leg is killing me, but I start to climb up the stairs, my footsteps heavy from my tiredness. Near the middle of the stairs, I swear I can hear Onew singing.
And then I see them there. The man I love in the arms of someone else. They look so in love. I look like a fool, with these stupid flowers in my hands. I run down the stairs, swearing that I will never look back. How could Key choose Onew over me? That's it. It's over. Today, I close my heart to Key forever. And not that I want to admit this, but the way Onew was looking at Key while he sang, sent shivers down my spine. Maybe it's high time that I move on.
Taemin POV
"Minho, what's idol life like?" Minho already knew so much about my life, and I've even broken down in tears in front of him. But I know nothing about him (apart from the things I've seen in interviews).
"Well, it's normal."
"Well, obviously it's normal for you. But compared to the life of someone NORMAL normal it's far from normal."
"I guess." I feel like Minho has a really hard time talking to me. Does he find me boring? Or maybe he doesn't like me that much..
"I mean, I've always imagined life of an idol to feel constant pressure. Always in the public eye right? And on variety programs, you have to act differently right? And fan service? Does Jongkey versus Onkey exist?"
"Hmm. I guess you can say that as an idol you have two different sides to you. One that you show to the public, and one that's for your private life. But it's not like they're completely different. Your public image is an exaggerated version of yourself. So Key really is a diva, but he's not as bad as you'd think. And about JongKey and Onkey, I'm not exactly sure what's going on there myself. You can ask them tonight at dinner."
"Don't you ever get tired of being in the public eye all the time? I mean, do you ever get sick of the fake smiles and keeping up the image? Don't you just want to be able to be yourself for aslong as you want?" I didn't mean to be this pushy, but the questions just came out automatically. I hope I haven't offended him. He doesn't look offended, but then again I always have trouble reading his face.
"To be honest, I would love to take a month's vacation and go somewhere where nobody knows me. But if I had to choose all or nothing, I'd definitely pick being an idol. I just love the feeling of being on stage with adoring fans. I know it sounds a bit arrogant, but the way the fans scream your name when they hear your music. Being able to affect people that way, and to touch them. Idol life can be a pain in the butt, but it's exhilarating. It shows that there's more to life than just living and dying."
"Minho I know exactly what you mean. All that you've just said, it's exactly how I feel about helping people. All the people I help are like what fangirls are to you. I know that my life has purpose because I can touch their lives and hopefully change them."
"Taemin," Minho says cautiously. "Do you ever feel alone? Like, when you're surrounded by tons of people but you really feel like you're just by yourself? It's like the silence is the loudest part of your life."
"Minho. That's exactly what my life is. I never stay anywhere long enough to make friends, and if I did stay long enough I don't think I would want to make those connections. The day that plane crashed was the day I lost everyone I ever loved, and I don't think I will ever be able to open myself like that again." I can't believe the words that are coming out of my mouth. I haven't even said them to myself, and yet I'm spilling my heart out for Minho. "I'm always so lonely. I feel the satisfaction and warmth of helping teenagers find meaning in their lives, but I pay the price of feeling empty inside."
"Taemin you don't have to do that to yourself. You don't have to be alone to help others."
"I do. I have to for-fill the promise I made to my father. I have to do everything humanly possible to help those who can't help themselves. Even if it means sacrificing my own happiness." I don't realise it but stared crying as soon as I mention my father. Minho sees my tears and edges closer to me.
"Taemin listen to me," he says as he wipes my tears with his jacket. "You can do everything that you are doing now, you can change all the lives you are changing and study medicine so that you can save even more lives in the future, but you don't have to do it alone. I don't get it. Why do you think you have to be alone? I mean, I feel alone sometimes, but I know I'm not alone."
I don't know how to answer his question. Well I do, but I don't know how to tell him. I'm alone because I'm scared to let anyone in. Because if I do they're just going to leave me like anyone else who I've ever loved. There's more stories that Minho doesn't know. Stories in the care home, in boarding school. This is the only way I know how to live life. Alone. And I'm prepared to stay like this the rest of my life.
I don't say any of this. I just let Minho hold me as I continue to let out tears. Tears for my family, and for myself.
"Shh Taemin. It's okay. You're not alone, you have me. I'm going to be here for you."
I don't want to believe him. But every part of me is telling me to trust him.
"Taemin. Tomorrow, after the radio, let's go and visit your family's grave. I'd like to meet them."
Maybe, just maybe I should listen to my own advice.
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A/N: I'd just like to once again recommend this video for you guys to watch if you haven't already. This guy has been like a guide for me through rough times in my life. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ciYk-UwqFKA&feature=related
AUTHOR: wemwems
GENRE: AU
PAIRINGS: 2min, OnKey, JongKey for now :)
RATING: PG-13 to NC-17
SUMMARY: Lee Taemin isn't a normal 17 year old boy. The death of his family has given him a new insight to life, and he is on a mission to change the world. However, he didn't plan on falling in love with Choi Minho, his favourite Korean idol, who loves him more than life itself. But which is more important to him: Being with the one man who can give him a second chance of having a family, or his dream to make the world a better place? If only he could have both...
A/N: Sorry for those who disagree with Key's choice!! I don't know why I chose it, it just made the story flow xxx Oh and you guys are probably wondering why and how I update so often? Because I can't wait to find out what happens next XD
Minho POV
"Hi!" I saw awkwardly to Taemin. It just occurred to me that I had no idea what I was going to say. Being with him on the set was so different than out here in the real world.
"Hi." Taemin smiles shyly. Dammit those cheeks, I just want to chop them off and … wait no I don't chop them, I want to pinch them hard so he goes "Owww" and then I'll kiss them better. I realise that none of us has said anything for the past 30 seconds. "Wh.. What are you doing here?"
"Oh right. I just wanted to make sure you're okay, I mean you were pretty upset over at the studio."
"Well that happens every time. I get pretty emotional. I guess it would be easier if I was stronger, and could hide my emotions more easily. "
"Yeh.. I guess." Why can't I think of anything better to say? Why am I here again? Oh right, I want to comfort him. Quick Minho, say something comforting. "So, how was your day?" Oh my goodness. I don't even want to look at his face after asking that, but I'm sure he's looking at me like I'm mentally retarded. However, he replies as if it was a normal question.
"It was great. I love Korea, I haven't been here since, well since I last visited my family's grave." I hope I didn't upset him. Nothing's going right...
"Oh, well how long are you going to be in Korea?"
"Just for another week, then I'm going back to London." Only one week? And then he's gone? No way. Maybe I can find a way to keep him here. Should I steal his passport or something? "Do you want to come inside?"
"Huh?"
"Well we've been standing chatting outside my door for the past 5 minutes I thought we'd be more comfortable inside."
"Oh yeah, sure. Sounds good to me."
His apartment is small but cozy, with a small black sofa facing a TV, a cute little kitchen and then two doors leading to two rooms. I'm guess one's the bedroom and one's the bathroom.
"Nice place." I take a seat on the sofa
"Haha thanks. Can i get you a drink?"
I'm really thirsty.
"No thanks." Why can't I think straight when I'm with him? I'm the idol, but he seems completely calm. Well, it's not like he concerns himself with things like that anyway. He's way beyond that. Now I'm starting to think I'm way out of my league. Isn't It Key that he likes anyway?
"Minho."
I love the way he says my name, stressing the "h" with his British accent.
"Hm?"
"Thankyou for coming to check up on me. It feels nice to have a friend here in Korea, I haven't really had the chance to make any."
"Oh really, don't worry about it. I'm really concerned about you actually. You're only 17 and you're here in Korea alone? You don't know the area, you shouldn't be wondering about. Especially at night, there are some dangerous people around here. You know what I mean?" I didn't want to sound like an over concerned mother, that's Key's job. But once I opened my mouth, my mind couldn't filter what I was saying.
"I guess you're kind of right," he admits. "I know it's not 100% safe for me to be on my own out here, but I don't really have anyone to take care of me. It's been that way for 3 years now. I've kind of learnt to handle things on my own."
"That makes sense." Is all I could think of to say.
"Hmm."
There's a really awkward uncomfortable silence.
"So, what are you planning on doing tonight?" I finally ask him.
"Just resting. I've got an appointment with Chinchin radio tomorrow morning."
"Oh you're doing another broadcast?"
"Yep. I'm only here for a week I want to talk to as many people as possible."
I was worried. I didn't want him to start crying again without me being there.
"Well, do you mind if I come with you?"
Suddenly he starts to blush like crazy.
"Yeh that would be great."
Taemin POV
Minho Choi is sitting on my sofa. Eeeeeshh! I'm trying so hard to act calm, to seem cool and collected. But it's Minho. My favourite idol. Sitting on my sofa. Words can't describe how nervous I am right now. And the fact that he's acting weird makes it worse. I'm starting to wonder why he came here in the first place. Was he really concerned with me?
"Do you mind if I come with you?"
Oh, he wants to come with me to the radio station! Suddenly my face heats up. Does this mean he cares about me?
"Yeh that would be great." I'm aware of how much I'm blushing at the moment. I'm aware that he's aware. He's aware that I'm aware that he's aware.
"Good. What about tonight? Would you like to come to dinner with me? I could invite the rest of Shinee aswell?"
It's getting hard to tell whether Minho likes me, or is just concerned for me in a big brother way. I'll take either one, but if he really does like me, it would be… just… amazing.
Key POV
I heard a crash on the other side of the phone. "Omo! Are you okay?"
"Kibum. Are you really picking me? What about Jonghyun?"
"Onew, like I said, it's you."
"Why?"
"Do you really want to do this over the phone?"
"No. Where are you? I'm coming to you right now!"
"No need, I'm coming to you. You're in dorm right? I'm walking up the stairs."
Suddenly I hear a door swing open, and it sounds like an elephant wearing high heels is running down the stairs, tripping numerous times. I get nervous as the foot steps and foot trips get louder and louder, and then Onew is right in front of me. We stand there for a second, smiling at each other. If I had chosen Jonghyun, we'd be all over each other right away, but with Onew it's different. He takes a step towards me. He always does this. He takes a step, then waits for me to take one. Jonghyun would have just grabbed me. But my days of comparing the two are over. It's just me and Onew now. I take that step towards him, but instead of embracing me, he takes my hands in his. He brings one of my hands up to his face and rubs his cheek against it, like he's a cat. I start to giggle.
"Hehehe, Onew what are you doing?"
"I love the sound of you giggling like that."
For some reason this sends me in another fit of giggles.
"No really what are you doing?" I say, my inner diva starting to get impatient.
"I just can't believe it. This hand, is all mine." He says, and then kisses it.
He then takes another step towards me. He starts planting kisses on my cheeks sending me into another fit of giggles. "And these gorgeous cheeks are mine too."
He then runs his hands through my hair. "All mine. Mine, mine, mine." he repeats.
"Yours. Everything I am is yours." He stares into my eyes, as if he sees right through me. He takes one last step forward, closing the gap between his body and mine. Finally he's going to kiss me. But instead he just puts his forehead against mine again. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me in close. He closes his eyes and starts swaying. I feel silly because we're in the hallway, but I'm enjoying our closeness too much for me to say anything. He softly starts singing:
"Do you hear me
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying"
I hear footsteps coming up the stairs, but I don't care. I'm enjoying myself so much I could melt right here in his arms.
"Boy I hear you in my dreams
I hear your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard"
Suddenly I hear the footsteps stop, and then they start again, only they're going in the other direction. Can't people walk up and down stairs softly? I'm trying to listen to a love serenade over here!! I start to smell flowers even though there are none around. So this is love.
"I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday"
Wow, I really am lucky.
Jonghyun POV
I'm still in the park, walking around, waiting for Key to call me. I know he's going to pick me, I just know it. Suddenly my phone starts ringing. YES. This is it! My heart drops when I see it's Minho calling.
"What?"
"Nice to hear from you too."
I was not in the mood. "What do you want Minho I'm kind of busy."
"Oh. Sorry hyung. I just thought that the five of us could go out tonight to dinner with Taemin."
"Who's Taemin?"
"What hyung? You haven't seen the broadcast?"
"No I was gonna watch it tonight."
"Well now you don't have to. Meet Taemin tonight!"
"Are Onew and Key gonna be there?"
"We're all going!" I definitely want to see Key. Maybe he hasn't made up his mind yet. I just have to spend a little more time with him, and he'll see how much he loves me.
"Okay fine. Text me the time and address." I say and I hang up.
Maybe Key thought I was in dorm. Maybe he's waiting for me there. It's just a 15 minute walk, but 5 minutes if I sprint. Oh wait, I have this stupid cast on.
It still only ends up taking me 11 minutes to get there, plus I stop at the flower shop to buy an arrangement of red and white roses, Key's favourite. My leg is killing me, but I start to climb up the stairs, my footsteps heavy from my tiredness. Near the middle of the stairs, I swear I can hear Onew singing.
And then I see them there. The man I love in the arms of someone else. They look so in love. I look like a fool, with these stupid flowers in my hands. I run down the stairs, swearing that I will never look back. How could Key choose Onew over me? That's it. It's over. Today, I close my heart to Key forever. And not that I want to admit this, but the way Onew was looking at Key while he sang, sent shivers down my spine. Maybe it's high time that I move on.
Taemin POV
"Minho, what's idol life like?" Minho already knew so much about my life, and I've even broken down in tears in front of him. But I know nothing about him (apart from the things I've seen in interviews).
"Well, it's normal."
"Well, obviously it's normal for you. But compared to the life of someone NORMAL normal it's far from normal."
"I guess." I feel like Minho has a really hard time talking to me. Does he find me boring? Or maybe he doesn't like me that much..
"I mean, I've always imagined life of an idol to feel constant pressure. Always in the public eye right? And on variety programs, you have to act differently right? And fan service? Does Jongkey versus Onkey exist?"
"Hmm. I guess you can say that as an idol you have two different sides to you. One that you show to the public, and one that's for your private life. But it's not like they're completely different. Your public image is an exaggerated version of yourself. So Key really is a diva, but he's not as bad as you'd think. And about JongKey and Onkey, I'm not exactly sure what's going on there myself. You can ask them tonight at dinner."
"Don't you ever get tired of being in the public eye all the time? I mean, do you ever get sick of the fake smiles and keeping up the image? Don't you just want to be able to be yourself for aslong as you want?" I didn't mean to be this pushy, but the questions just came out automatically. I hope I haven't offended him. He doesn't look offended, but then again I always have trouble reading his face.
"To be honest, I would love to take a month's vacation and go somewhere where nobody knows me. But if I had to choose all or nothing, I'd definitely pick being an idol. I just love the feeling of being on stage with adoring fans. I know it sounds a bit arrogant, but the way the fans scream your name when they hear your music. Being able to affect people that way, and to touch them. Idol life can be a pain in the butt, but it's exhilarating. It shows that there's more to life than just living and dying."
"Minho I know exactly what you mean. All that you've just said, it's exactly how I feel about helping people. All the people I help are like what fangirls are to you. I know that my life has purpose because I can touch their lives and hopefully change them."
"Taemin," Minho says cautiously. "Do you ever feel alone? Like, when you're surrounded by tons of people but you really feel like you're just by yourself? It's like the silence is the loudest part of your life."
"Minho. That's exactly what my life is. I never stay anywhere long enough to make friends, and if I did stay long enough I don't think I would want to make those connections. The day that plane crashed was the day I lost everyone I ever loved, and I don't think I will ever be able to open myself like that again." I can't believe the words that are coming out of my mouth. I haven't even said them to myself, and yet I'm spilling my heart out for Minho. "I'm always so lonely. I feel the satisfaction and warmth of helping teenagers find meaning in their lives, but I pay the price of feeling empty inside."
"Taemin you don't have to do that to yourself. You don't have to be alone to help others."
"I do. I have to for-fill the promise I made to my father. I have to do everything humanly possible to help those who can't help themselves. Even if it means sacrificing my own happiness." I don't realise it but stared crying as soon as I mention my father. Minho sees my tears and edges closer to me.
"Taemin listen to me," he says as he wipes my tears with his jacket. "You can do everything that you are doing now, you can change all the lives you are changing and study medicine so that you can save even more lives in the future, but you don't have to do it alone. I don't get it. Why do you think you have to be alone? I mean, I feel alone sometimes, but I know I'm not alone."
I don't know how to answer his question. Well I do, but I don't know how to tell him. I'm alone because I'm scared to let anyone in. Because if I do they're just going to leave me like anyone else who I've ever loved. There's more stories that Minho doesn't know. Stories in the care home, in boarding school. This is the only way I know how to live life. Alone. And I'm prepared to stay like this the rest of my life.
I don't say any of this. I just let Minho hold me as I continue to let out tears. Tears for my family, and for myself.
"Shh Taemin. It's okay. You're not alone, you have me. I'm going to be here for you."
I don't want to believe him. But every part of me is telling me to trust him.
"Taemin. Tomorrow, after the radio, let's go and visit your family's grave. I'd like to meet them."
Maybe, just maybe I should listen to my own advice.
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A/N: I'd just like to once again recommend this video for you guys to watch if you haven't already. This guy has been like a guide for me through rough times in my life. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ciYk-UwqFKA&feature=related