The age old question...
Okay so latey it's been all about love... or a lack there of. Here are all the senarios/questions that I am so desperatly trying to grasp the concept of:
Is it better to be in a relationship where for the most part you are ignored? Granted you're not being completely ignored, but for the most part it's really pretty relationship-less. But at least you have someone, and when they're paying attention to you it's the best relationship ever and it makes you question all your doubts.
or
Is it better to be in a long distance relationship? You're so deeply in love and hardly ever fight. But everyday that you wake up and know that it's another day you won't see their face or feel their arms around you, a piece of you dies. And every time you have to hang up the phone the pain in your heart gets sharper.
or
Is it better to be in a semi sort of relationship? You don't have all the extra baggage that comes with a relationship, you get all the perks and things are great... but they could be better. It could have a label, they could spend more time with you, there would be certain truths that wouldn't have to be analyzed all the time.
or
Is it better to not be in a relationship at all. To be free to do and feel what you please, be unattatched and ready for whatever comes your way. To sit broken hearted as you pine for the one person you want more than anything but know you can't have. To constantly wonder "why me?" and "when?".
In conclusion... each one sucks.
If you ask girls they'll tell you guys are selfish inconsiderate ass holes who only care about what's going on in their life at that exact moment and expect you to work around and with it.
If you ask guys they'll tell you girls are complicated emotionally messed up bitches who don't know what they want and when they figure it out won't let up until they get it.
And in between all this, in the midst of all this chaos we're supposed to find our "true love" our "soul mate". That one person that makes you happy more than anyone else in the world. That certain someone that makes your life make sence. Well let me tell you right now... if you haven't figured it out already... if you find that person, that person you can say anything to, that person that you trust more than any other, the person you are most comfortable with, the person you are incredibly head-over-heels in love, lust, and infatuated with... don't you dare let go. If you do then you only deserve the recourse that follows.
So what is it that I want... I haven't thought about that lately... I've been so caught up in the negativity of all of this that I know what I don't want, but what is it I do want...
I want someone who will fight for me. Someone who is agressive enough to lead the way but humble enough to ask me to lead. Someone who make me absolutly weak in the stomach. Someone who can be their own person, have their own life but instead of being added to a list I become part of a routine, Someone who wants to cuddle in their pajamas all day with me on a saturday and watch movies, have pillow fights, tickle matches, and deep meaningful conversations. Someone who can go from being 6 to 26 and back again in a matter of minutes. Someone who wants me, thinks I am beautiful, smart, funny, elegant, interesting, and wierd enough to fight for. Someone who is scared to lose me.
Everyone wants the same thing... everyone wants someone... the trick is finding the one that wants you back.
Is it better to be in a relationship where for the most part you are ignored? Granted you're not being completely ignored, but for the most part it's really pretty relationship-less. But at least you have someone, and when they're paying attention to you it's the best relationship ever and it makes you question all your doubts.
or
Is it better to be in a long distance relationship? You're so deeply in love and hardly ever fight. But everyday that you wake up and know that it's another day you won't see their face or feel their arms around you, a piece of you dies. And every time you have to hang up the phone the pain in your heart gets sharper.
or
Is it better to be in a semi sort of relationship? You don't have all the extra baggage that comes with a relationship, you get all the perks and things are great... but they could be better. It could have a label, they could spend more time with you, there would be certain truths that wouldn't have to be analyzed all the time.
or
Is it better to not be in a relationship at all. To be free to do and feel what you please, be unattatched and ready for whatever comes your way. To sit broken hearted as you pine for the one person you want more than anything but know you can't have. To constantly wonder "why me?" and "when?".
In conclusion... each one sucks.
If you ask girls they'll tell you guys are selfish inconsiderate ass holes who only care about what's going on in their life at that exact moment and expect you to work around and with it.
If you ask guys they'll tell you girls are complicated emotionally messed up bitches who don't know what they want and when they figure it out won't let up until they get it.
And in between all this, in the midst of all this chaos we're supposed to find our "true love" our "soul mate". That one person that makes you happy more than anyone else in the world. That certain someone that makes your life make sence. Well let me tell you right now... if you haven't figured it out already... if you find that person, that person you can say anything to, that person that you trust more than any other, the person you are most comfortable with, the person you are incredibly head-over-heels in love, lust, and infatuated with... don't you dare let go. If you do then you only deserve the recourse that follows.
So what is it that I want... I haven't thought about that lately... I've been so caught up in the negativity of all of this that I know what I don't want, but what is it I do want...
I want someone who will fight for me. Someone who is agressive enough to lead the way but humble enough to ask me to lead. Someone who make me absolutly weak in the stomach. Someone who can be their own person, have their own life but instead of being added to a list I become part of a routine, Someone who wants to cuddle in their pajamas all day with me on a saturday and watch movies, have pillow fights, tickle matches, and deep meaningful conversations. Someone who can go from being 6 to 26 and back again in a matter of minutes. Someone who wants me, thinks I am beautiful, smart, funny, elegant, interesting, and wierd enough to fight for. Someone who is scared to lose me.
Everyone wants the same thing... everyone wants someone... the trick is finding the one that wants you back.