Groove Is In The Heart
I definitely kept up writing the next day or so after my pledge to write daily.
Then some life stuff took over.
I'm scared I can't write, anymore. I was so skilled but unnurtured as a youth, that I fear I've aged out of my best capabilities. After all, my eyes have stopped working for no reason. Just suddenly one day, things were not readable if I held them too close. One day, out of nowhere. Without warning. I just couldn't see close things anymore. And I don't understand it, because so many parts of me feel vastly improved.
I mean really, I'm smarter... in a way. Like, I understand things faster. But also, I can't remember a damn thing. I'm desperate to go back in time and start over knowing my worth. Knowing my intelligence. Knowing no miracle was coming along to save me.
But maybe this will help. Maybe I just need to keep writing daily, and my brain will light up again. PLEASE LET THIS WORK.