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thats it guys.
listen im a druggy-most of you probably dont care anyways and if you do im sorry thats the way it is. But i just realized its gone to the next step-and i dont even care.
my life is in shambles. and its never going to get easier or better so im just going to ride through my life-feeling the best i can. Even if the feeling isnt real.
I love Ecstasy.
I've done it two nights in a row-and i dont want to stop. It's not addictive, but you knwo what? who cares! I'm going to do it as much as i can. I'm just done with this normality-
i hate myself. And i dont care how many fuckin people i annoy right now! Because everyone is always so sensitive! and if you make one mistake its like HOLY CRAP THE WORLD IS ENDING.
everybody needs to just RELAX. about EVERYTHING. it will never get easier. so we have to just deal with it.
ive had fuckin leukimia! and my life isnt like it was supposed to be! i was supposed to grow up into a beautiful girl with perfect hands and a normal body! and get good grades and get into this amazing college and be the lead star of a broadway show.
but no. im the fuckin "best friend" type cast. so whats the point in going on if you'll always be cast to the side in every single thing you do?
i deserve better.
i want to fall inlove
ive gone on about 1000,000,008937475473 dates and im creeped out by every single guy i meet.
and guess who's fault it is? my dads.
yah i don't know if that makes sense to you-but who the fuck gives anyway.
its fucking over.
no more dreams.
no more sleep.
no more eating.
no more family.
no more friend drama.
im taking a backseat to EVERYTHING.
maybe this entry didnt make sense-the reason is i have fuckin adrenaline everywhere. the after effetcs of ecstasy are incredible. im not depressed at all! because im finally going to just fuckin gfive up and stop complaining. this world is too fucked up for me to be in anyways.
everybody fuckin hates eachother and are worried about themselves and what other people think because people ingeneral cant stop talking about eachother.
just everybody shut the fuck up!
thats all i have to say.
and this time i wont be back to appologize. bnot that it matters anyways.
except for sarah from camp. im not sure if you will get to read this
but im sorry im not the person you thought i am.
im not the person i thought i was.
there's nothing i can do.
im going to go lie down.
seeyah.
listen im a druggy-most of you probably dont care anyways and if you do im sorry thats the way it is. But i just realized its gone to the next step-and i dont even care.
my life is in shambles. and its never going to get easier or better so im just going to ride through my life-feeling the best i can. Even if the feeling isnt real.
I love Ecstasy.
I've done it two nights in a row-and i dont want to stop. It's not addictive, but you knwo what? who cares! I'm going to do it as much as i can. I'm just done with this normality-
i hate myself. And i dont care how many fuckin people i annoy right now! Because everyone is always so sensitive! and if you make one mistake its like HOLY CRAP THE WORLD IS ENDING.
everybody needs to just RELAX. about EVERYTHING. it will never get easier. so we have to just deal with it.
ive had fuckin leukimia! and my life isnt like it was supposed to be! i was supposed to grow up into a beautiful girl with perfect hands and a normal body! and get good grades and get into this amazing college and be the lead star of a broadway show.
but no. im the fuckin "best friend" type cast. so whats the point in going on if you'll always be cast to the side in every single thing you do?
i deserve better.
i want to fall inlove
ive gone on about 1000,000,008937475473 dates and im creeped out by every single guy i meet.
and guess who's fault it is? my dads.
yah i don't know if that makes sense to you-but who the fuck gives anyway.
its fucking over.
no more dreams.
no more sleep.
no more eating.
no more family.
no more friend drama.
im taking a backseat to EVERYTHING.
maybe this entry didnt make sense-the reason is i have fuckin adrenaline everywhere. the after effetcs of ecstasy are incredible. im not depressed at all! because im finally going to just fuckin gfive up and stop complaining. this world is too fucked up for me to be in anyways.
everybody fuckin hates eachother and are worried about themselves and what other people think because people ingeneral cant stop talking about eachother.
just everybody shut the fuck up!
thats all i have to say.
and this time i wont be back to appologize. bnot that it matters anyways.
except for sarah from camp. im not sure if you will get to read this
but im sorry im not the person you thought i am.
im not the person i thought i was.
there's nothing i can do.
im going to go lie down.
seeyah.