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I like typing by candle light.
I dunno. I guess I'm just feeling a bit uprooted lately.
I mean, I'm really happy here. I have great friends. And there are people I get the feeling that I'm going to know for life. But. I'm just worried that my old life is moving on without me and passing me by. It's just continuing as normal without me, and it doesn't seem to make much difference.
There are all these great nights out and parties that I'm missing. But it doesn't really seem to matter.
I just don't like change. Everythings moving so fast. I just miss how it used to be.
I also worry that I'm never going to have happier days than these last couple of years... It's really depressing to think about, really.
It's not that I'm not having a good time down here though. Things are going great recently. My essay was handed in, and I'm pretty pleased with it actually. Been working this weekend, but I've been on the till... and I quite enjoy that. Then tonight at about 8 o clock, we went out for dinner to Weatherspoons. Because we're classy like that.
Thursday night was Lucy's birthday, which was a pretty good night. We went to see Komakino and The Cooper Temple Clause do a DJ set, and then went to The Cell for a drink and a dance afterwards. Me and her went for coffee the next day. We were talking. She's kind of going through the same thing as me, so it's good to talk to her. Not that I'm actually 'going through' anything, but you know what I mean.
I guess I just have a problem with letting go.
Turns out I'm owed 111 pounds from the University as well; so I look forward to enquiring about that tomorrow. Oh, my Faint t-shirt and Tanaou CD should be coming through the post tomorrow as well.
Going to be working a lot over the next few weeks, with it being Christmas and the Christmas Market. Actually, that should be pretty good. I can wear a scarf and some gloves and wonder around the Christmas Market with it smelling of Winter and roast chesnuts. I'm looking forward to that, now I think about it.
Need to work out a day to go back to Leeds to do some Christmas shopping. I already have Adam's and Lucy's present. Better start thinking on what to get the rest of you. And I wreckon I'll go see Ali Whitton on the 11th December. Final date of the year and it's going to be pretty special, apparently. Anyone up for it?
Need to write my book review of 1984 by Thursday. And tomorrow I have a meeting to go to. I feel important now; reaching the dizzy heights of deputy editor and all. Oh, and Electric Soft Perade are playing at the Duke of Wellington on the 5th... so I'll probably go to that. Should be nice.
That pretty much sums up my plans for the next week... I'm just going to carry on doing what I always do; play it by ear.
Has anyone else ever had the feeling that they're not really sure where home is anymore?
You're the only sense the world has ever made.
I dunno. I guess I'm just feeling a bit uprooted lately.
I mean, I'm really happy here. I have great friends. And there are people I get the feeling that I'm going to know for life. But. I'm just worried that my old life is moving on without me and passing me by. It's just continuing as normal without me, and it doesn't seem to make much difference.
There are all these great nights out and parties that I'm missing. But it doesn't really seem to matter.
I just don't like change. Everythings moving so fast. I just miss how it used to be.
I also worry that I'm never going to have happier days than these last couple of years... It's really depressing to think about, really.
It's not that I'm not having a good time down here though. Things are going great recently. My essay was handed in, and I'm pretty pleased with it actually. Been working this weekend, but I've been on the till... and I quite enjoy that. Then tonight at about 8 o clock, we went out for dinner to Weatherspoons. Because we're classy like that.
Thursday night was Lucy's birthday, which was a pretty good night. We went to see Komakino and The Cooper Temple Clause do a DJ set, and then went to The Cell for a drink and a dance afterwards. Me and her went for coffee the next day. We were talking. She's kind of going through the same thing as me, so it's good to talk to her. Not that I'm actually 'going through' anything, but you know what I mean.
I guess I just have a problem with letting go.
Turns out I'm owed 111 pounds from the University as well; so I look forward to enquiring about that tomorrow. Oh, my Faint t-shirt and Tanaou CD should be coming through the post tomorrow as well.
Going to be working a lot over the next few weeks, with it being Christmas and the Christmas Market. Actually, that should be pretty good. I can wear a scarf and some gloves and wonder around the Christmas Market with it smelling of Winter and roast chesnuts. I'm looking forward to that, now I think about it.
Need to work out a day to go back to Leeds to do some Christmas shopping. I already have Adam's and Lucy's present. Better start thinking on what to get the rest of you. And I wreckon I'll go see Ali Whitton on the 11th December. Final date of the year and it's going to be pretty special, apparently. Anyone up for it?
Need to write my book review of 1984 by Thursday. And tomorrow I have a meeting to go to. I feel important now; reaching the dizzy heights of deputy editor and all. Oh, and Electric Soft Perade are playing at the Duke of Wellington on the 5th... so I'll probably go to that. Should be nice.
That pretty much sums up my plans for the next week... I'm just going to carry on doing what I always do; play it by ear.
Has anyone else ever had the feeling that they're not really sure where home is anymore?
You're the only sense the world has ever made.