ugh
today was...weird. and so was last night. i don't feel like myself at all lately. one moment i am so happy, so high on everything then im just extremely low and i feel like i have no one. the one person making me feel like a person, making me feel beautiful in every way possible..i think my feelings toward him are changing and it hurts cuz i don't know what i feel. i feel like i can't feel at times and that hurts so bad. school was alright but then sad cuz Justin was absent but he was there at the end of the day and that was when i was at my happiest. <3 For some reason it feels like my heart is being ripped out but not just a passing moment, like a long lasting pain. make it go away....=(