Dear time.........Slow the fuck down
Well today was a much better day lol. Last night made me feel so good. I mean it was really the dubmest thing talking to shannon and molly when i was suposse to be tired so made the past coupel of days seem so much better. I feel alsleep knowing everything would be ok. So yesterday we got the room assiments for next semester and year. I am so not even ready to start thinking about that even. I mean i am just getting used to me room situation this semester and i am so loving it lol. I know next semester will be diffrent i just wish time would stop moving so fast. I mean it feels like this semster just as finally started to slow down. I mean room selection for next year was not even on the rader now it like wow... this semester is going to be over soon. I mean i don't even know everybody plans for next semester, some of my friends may not even be coming back. I know i want to stay on heathlylifestyles. I don't if any of my friends will stay but i have to get it though my thick skull that even if we don't live on the same floor and in the same room things won't changw. I also need to realize if they friendship don't last then they were not true to begin with. I guess i am not really worried i just want to know the outcome already like i want to see and understand the finsh line. I know the reason i am so scared in some aspect of my mind is because this semester and year has been damging to my friendship in a snese. i guess i am alwauys the person to think the reason people are my friends is because they need to be not because they want to be. I know i have good friends up here and everything will work out i just wish i could see what next year would be like
laura
laura