Feb 05, 2007 10:06
Dear Jounrnal,
The second semester at wells as started of with a bang some good things have happen and some not so good things have happen. Geez where do i start. I never would have thought that this semester i would consider leaving my room to dorm with my current roomate and a really good friend of mine. Now i am trying to figure out if this switch is really worth while and if we should do it. i know frist of all i was not the first choice for the switch. My roomate and shannon wanted another girl to dorm with them which became a subject of much distress to me for several hourse. When they first asked me i was so excited and felt like i was wanted for something. You have no idea how good that feels. Now that the excietment and distress has worn off i am really thinking. I guess when they frist said we all have think about it, i guess i was less likely to really think about the situation and give them my full thought becasue i did not want to be the odd one out. Just like if i was going to be left in a single by my self i would have been less likely to say how upset i was just because i did not want to ruin the fun.
I guess because i have a seen many situations in my life that started out really good and then ended really bad especially friendship wise. I guess that everybody has issues no reltionship or friendship is perfect and that is to be expected. i guess as i sit here and think through all the good things and bad things about changing rooms. I don't acutally care about packing up and move because that i think would be fun. I am a person who loves to organize and reorginze things. I think however i have finally nailed down my biggest fear. i am afarid that if i dorm with shannon and molly.. we will all come out of the situation hating each other. Not molly as much because i have dorm with her last semster but shannon maybe. I think right now our situation works. I think because we all have our own space and we are not on top of one another 24/7. I also know girls i think that because we are really good friends it would be hard to be dorming with oneanother. I would not want to dorm and live with shannon and then wind up fighting with her. I would not want to loss another friendship because we were just to quick to really think about. I also think that now we all kind of have a rythem or a pattern with each other that would have to change.
Over the break being a only child was really lonely and i was so happy to come back and be with all my friends because they make me so happy just seeing them and being with them. I just don't want rush into a situation and wind up lossing one or two of my best friends at wells. Now i am more confused then ever and really have nobody to talk to. Shannon and molly are involved in the sitauation and poor anna is always in the middle. And my best friend in the whole is currently not avabale... Now what do i do.... i will keep you updated..... lets hope my drama works it self out..
Laura