the good and the bad!!!
So ya i usually love and hate tech at the same time. i got pampered this summer, because broadway bound never really had tech. It is very different from things here. So ya saturday was random. I did a really good inerview for my project. Then i went on a errand with jess and laura and then i went back to my room. Then me and juicy headed over to see professor grady play. I was not esxpecting the potery so that got a bit boring but the play i liked. I liked seeing professor grady act. Then sunday from start to end was a complete and utter mess. I dont think i can find one postive thing that happen. The basement of phipps was flooded at the start of pratice. It was a complete mess. The frist day of tech is always nutty but this was just bad. I was asked to do gel changes and to say i was stressed was a big understatment. I of course want everything to be perfect, and sometimes it just cant be perfect. So ya by the end of the run i was already upset but after the run i talked to my mom. Jason and me are really over, i mean fully over. It is never easy to close the door. I mean the door has always been open, however no it is shut, maybe not locked but shut. Jason family has always been crazy. His "step-dad" and his mom, have never liked me, for whatever reason. I found out that jason grandma died. I knew when she passed away, jason was going to lose it. He even told me himself. I guess the change before her death will always confuse me, but it better to leave the past in the past at some point. My mom told a friend the work with to send her condolencesces. However something went wrong, and he came to my house and accused me and my mother of arresment. He told me and my mother that we could not try and make any contact with jason. That was really hard for me to hear. It always gets harder during shows, because teching always reminds me of him. But for some reason i am ok. I mean nobody here will every be jason for me. But i have made some amazzing friends that care so much about me. It is nice to have a friends that knows just by looking at you or by your actions that something is wrong. Friendshps are not perfect, by any means but it is good knowing that i have that connection with some people. I think i am always getting better with being on my own. Last year spening a night alone, when other people were hanging out scared me. Now i am ok. I am happy for getting the reasons in advance now, i mean i would rater know the reason i am not invited, then think up terriable reasons in my head. i think that was the problems last year, the reaons were never give to me and i created bad reasons why things happen to me. This week is shannon birthday. I still remember how special she made my birthday. I Hope i can make her birthday as special as she made mine. Teching ony your birthday is never nice, hopefuly i can make it nice for her. This dance concert has been compicated from start to finish. I mean i think not having rebecca miles stenier really shook us all to the core. She was an amazzing stage mananger and was super organized and on task. She never missed a rehersal and was super dedicated and that is what i am used to from a SM. It is hard handing over the ropes to somebody new, however this was a really hard trasnation. Today went better, for that i am happy.
laura
laura