Lonely
My birthday party was a blast. A lot of the invitees didn't show up, but for those who did, it was extremely hilarious and fun. I got a few good presents, and I was really happy by the time it was over (though a bit disappointed that people had to leave.)
Anyway, fast forward to right now. I feel extremely lonely and just blah in general. I have to sleep so I could wake up early for school, but I feel blank, and not at all tired. I just had an argument with one of my friends, who turned out to be a jerk anyway, but it doesn't make me feel any better. I just want to, I don't know. Have a really close friend who can be there all the time, I guess? I don't know what I'm saying, but my friends seem to be all over the place. I have a lot of friends, but none of them are close to me. I don't share anything really personal with them. Maybe it's me (I'm sorry, I hate that cliche too) but whatever.
I'll probably regret posting this later on, haha.
I'm not emo, I swear! I just don't feel like much right now, and school is stressful and math makes me feel like a failure. Imagine that my whole math class did terrible on our last quiz/test, and the unimpressed teacher is thinking of a way so that it wouldn't count as much as it should, since we fail as a group. (Well, I doubt most of us actually failed, but we did do horrible.) Anyway, I think I better go to bed before my parents find out that I'm still awake. Good night.
OHOH, one more thing. I absolutely hate spoilers! Okay, I've been watching the Pussycat Dolls: Search For The Next Doll show and I'd been waiting all damn week for wednesday to see the final winner. But guess what? I go on youtube like 30 mins before the episode starts and find everyone discussing how Asia won and blahblah. I know, it's not a big deal (I'm not even a Pussycat Dolls fan) but I really wanted it to be a surprise. I really wanted Chelsea to win, though. D:
(DIAAA, I'm aware that you're the only one who reads this. I feel like such a loser, but I'm too lazy to add people, and most everyone I know here doesn't go on LJ anyway.)