bitch please.
so im sitting here, and pretty much nobody is online. so i figured id lj a bit haha.
life for lack of a better word somewhat kind of blows. im in a HUGE prediciment about next year. i'm either going to leave the best things in the world here to only find them worse, or i'm going to see that the life i have here is far from paradise and will have the time of my life.
either way, i see that i'm more than likely going to be fucked.
this whole "living in the moment" thing really isnt working. but im trying my hardest to make it work. and maybe its bullshit, but i'm losing sleep over it (and of course the other factors that for the most part won't bring up).
winter needs to end. its breaking me down into something worthless. i can't figure out how people can be winter people. i mean summer is just, i dont know. i'll put it this way: in summer you can be bruised up and broken hearted, yet when you walk outside wearing a bikini to just lay out on the grass drinking diet mountain dew being like "this is the shit."
whereas in winter, its like...you're bruised up and broken hearted and you go outside and are like "fuck its freezing" and then its definetly not fun. winter makes me feel like shit. bottom line. i just want to be happy..hell i want everyone to be happy! i want everything to work out possitively and i sure as fuck dont want to be in the state im in by the time spring rolls around..i fucking wont let myself do it!
fuck im not making sence again.
life for lack of a better word somewhat kind of blows. im in a HUGE prediciment about next year. i'm either going to leave the best things in the world here to only find them worse, or i'm going to see that the life i have here is far from paradise and will have the time of my life.
either way, i see that i'm more than likely going to be fucked.
this whole "living in the moment" thing really isnt working. but im trying my hardest to make it work. and maybe its bullshit, but i'm losing sleep over it (and of course the other factors that for the most part won't bring up).
winter needs to end. its breaking me down into something worthless. i can't figure out how people can be winter people. i mean summer is just, i dont know. i'll put it this way: in summer you can be bruised up and broken hearted, yet when you walk outside wearing a bikini to just lay out on the grass drinking diet mountain dew being like "this is the shit."
whereas in winter, its like...you're bruised up and broken hearted and you go outside and are like "fuck its freezing" and then its definetly not fun. winter makes me feel like shit. bottom line. i just want to be happy..hell i want everyone to be happy! i want everything to work out possitively and i sure as fuck dont want to be in the state im in by the time spring rolls around..i fucking wont let myself do it!
fuck im not making sence again.