Sometimes ya jsut gotta say something
It's been a wild time here lately.
The moveing had driven me to my breaking point ad I'm so glad it's over I can't even form words. It was really driveing me insain, and I know my closest friends found it hard to be around me, hell, ***I*** didnt want to be around me!
Thank god thats over.
Now I have a new stress, but this is kinda a nicer one, a gal I think is kinda fond of me and I think she's pretty cool. It's kinda hard after ony bing with one woman for so long (ok, for ME its been a long time). But we did were finaly intamate and it was nice, she donsn't realtty have the sex drive I would expect/like her to have. But I get it with the meds shes on and all. And trying to balance this with my LOVE has been hard, I dont want to hurt this new woman, but I CAN'T neglect my LOVE either.
we were all together this weekend, it was nice, but it was also kida scary, I was afraid I would hurt someones feeligns at any moment.
I kinda see this relationship being rather short term, I think ultametly, this isn't the kind of relationship this new woman wants and hopefully we will remain friends.
****the following is probably TMI so skip it if you dont wanna see it****
For whatever reson, after my guest left, my LOVE was ALL over me, if absence makes the heart grow fonder, I sapose that adstanance made her body grow in desire as well. so at fisrt opertunaty after my guest was gone, my LOVE just WORE ME OUT! I meen... we always fit together good when we make love but OH MY GODS!!!! This was like our first night together, only with a better grasp of exactly when where and how each other wants everythign I swere we must have madelove for no less than an hour and a half strait, than took a rest and repeated the whole thing. I couldn't walk after words!
So I think this kinda stress I can handle :)
*****pick up here if you skiped the TMI*****
There is also the barn were building, but I like doing that every day it's neet to see it change a little more. I also get a great sence of pride in knowing I'm doing something worth wild, that is tangable and real. So ppl can see it and admire it when its done. It's a good fealing to do a hard sweatiy days work.
Ok, I'm done babbleing for now, and I NEED to goto sleep.
The moveing had driven me to my breaking point ad I'm so glad it's over I can't even form words. It was really driveing me insain, and I know my closest friends found it hard to be around me, hell, ***I*** didnt want to be around me!
Thank god thats over.
Now I have a new stress, but this is kinda a nicer one, a gal I think is kinda fond of me and I think she's pretty cool. It's kinda hard after ony bing with one woman for so long (ok, for ME its been a long time). But we did were finaly intamate and it was nice, she donsn't realtty have the sex drive I would expect/like her to have. But I get it with the meds shes on and all. And trying to balance this with my LOVE has been hard, I dont want to hurt this new woman, but I CAN'T neglect my LOVE either.
we were all together this weekend, it was nice, but it was also kida scary, I was afraid I would hurt someones feeligns at any moment.
I kinda see this relationship being rather short term, I think ultametly, this isn't the kind of relationship this new woman wants and hopefully we will remain friends.
****the following is probably TMI so skip it if you dont wanna see it****
For whatever reson, after my guest left, my LOVE was ALL over me, if absence makes the heart grow fonder, I sapose that adstanance made her body grow in desire as well. so at fisrt opertunaty after my guest was gone, my LOVE just WORE ME OUT! I meen... we always fit together good when we make love but OH MY GODS!!!! This was like our first night together, only with a better grasp of exactly when where and how each other wants everythign I swere we must have madelove for no less than an hour and a half strait, than took a rest and repeated the whole thing. I couldn't walk after words!
So I think this kinda stress I can handle :)
*****pick up here if you skiped the TMI*****
There is also the barn were building, but I like doing that every day it's neet to see it change a little more. I also get a great sence of pride in knowing I'm doing something worth wild, that is tangable and real. So ppl can see it and admire it when its done. It's a good fealing to do a hard sweatiy days work.
Ok, I'm done babbleing for now, and I NEED to goto sleep.