I Feel So Alone

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ok last night Gator spent the night. i love that gurl to death. she is so much fun to be around. when she got here we bleached Tacos hair... thinking it would only tak like an hour, then he didnt leave till almost 11:30 when he got there at like 9. so yeaa....then he lfet after we did his hair. i tried to bleach a little part of my hair but it didnt work. it just lightened it. but yeaa...then b4 taco left he gave me his black hair dye. it was cool. so i dyed my hair black today. we didnt do muc. after he left we went to bed at like 11:45 then we got up at 1:30 today. she called Raph to c if he'd go out with me but i guess not becuase he has ot talk to her about something and he wants to be alone. seems like everytime find a guy i like thats what they say. "i want to be alone i dont want a g/f" thats what welshy sed too. oh well.. ill get his nuts. i hope. lol.but im out. i love Raph.

**Random Thoughts**
ok so its been a week since "he" left and we've talked once and thats was for like 5 minutes. monday he came to get jakes jersey and he told me i had to cheer up so hed leave. ya kno the only that went thru my mind then was "then y would i cheer up..i dont want you to leave" but yeaa..i smiled and w/e cuz he haddaa go. then he called thursday and goes "when r u coming to get the door" n im like "tomorrow" then hes like "oh good have meghann call me" and that was it. so whatever. i can already see him forgetting. i talked to Taco bout it last night n he's like telling me ive got gator n him but really i dont have him. i dont kno what it is but i dont feel like me n him could ever be as close as me n paulie. oh well fuck it. im out

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