If I could write you a song to make you fall in love;
this was supposed to be an emo post and its 2.04am but I just had a super long talk with aswin I feel so much better now (:
haha was supposed to go chaoxiang's room to finish up Thank You for Smoking cos we were so tired last night we couldnt take such a slow movie. but okay, the talk was well worth it to give the movie a miss, we'll watch it tmr night HAHAHA. its weird okay that we are all from singapore, but all the movies they talk about/watch are so foreign to me, like I've never heard about it before! and movies I watch, they think are crap >< and they watch all the american sitcoms and all, I FEEL LIKE I HAVENT BEEN LIVING IN TODAYS TIME. they ALL, like really ALL, talk about the same shows! okay opps digress.
it is true when I say when shit happens, it all comes all together. or its maybe that Im already emotionally vulnerable today so everything that comes just seem abit bigger than it actually is.
was really feeling like shit at the end of the day after many many things and so I called aswin my dear aunt agony. and while telling him my stuff I even thought he felt bored and uninterested! instead, after finish telling him my story, he said "tell you what, I come over to commonwealth now, we'll talk in the lobby" cos it was almost 12midnight already and no guests are allowed in or we need to pay an overnight charge.
hahaha omg what would I do without my aunt agony haha thank god I havent told any of my london friends about this blog so that I can still blog about life here without worrying that they would read it. and now I can talk about how grateful I am to him for being my support all this while hahaha so gay omg lol.
which reminds me of something that he said thats super funny and sweet. cos Im so dumb and ignorant of my world around me, he decided to be my mentor for a year and teach me all thats needed to know about studies, the world, cultures, sex (HAHA he was shocked at the little extent I knew about things), general knowledge, IT and the list goes on.
and so one day during lunch I wanted to get rid all of my 1 and 2 pence coins paying for a drink but I didnt dare to cos the cashier will kill me. but he insisted anyway and I did it and nothing happened lah and he said this
"see man whatever I tell you is always right, shit you should really just listen to me for everything from now on. if I ask you to jump down a building, you should jump also"
and at first I was abit huh about it, when he continued
"cos there will be a net below to catch you"
haha idk why but I thought that felt really sweet!! for everything bad that happened in my life here in london, I thank god for this bunch of people I've met here, I really dont know what I would do without them. maybe what aswin said is true, that I've been harping on everything that went wrong, I failed to see everything that went right. positivity yo weiting.
maybe Im just feeling good only for now cos I just had a 2 hour plus talk with him and he knocked fucking alot of sense into me and tmr I'll slip back into my immature depression again ahah but right now, Im thankful (:
AND SO I SHALL BLOG ABOUT MY HALF SUCCESSFUL ATTEMPTS TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY TODAY!
1) paper chase shopping!
went down to paperchase after lecture today to grab a birthday card for my dad. omgggg I never stepped into paperchase since I got here cos cheryl made it sound damn super ex and not worth it. I REGRET ): love paperchase!!!!! its so huge and they sell such pretty stuff and its not like super ex! bought a card for my daddy but Im regretting my choice now I wanna buy another design maybe I should go down tmr to get. hahaha one thing thats changed about me since I got here, is that I cherish my family so fucking alot now they mean like the world to me. to have a home, to have a family with you, it really means so so much. and I've neevr understood this point only till now. you know looking into an apartment now makes me feel envious cos thats a home?! omgg so pathetic right.
bought wrappers to wrap my file and a cute pencil box!! :D and I saw this card for mums that was so freaking pretty, I bought it to send my mum too although theres no special occasion. because YOU DONT NEED A REASON TO REMIND THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE, THAT YOU LOVE THEM (:
paper chase :D
it looks much prettier real life!!! its POP OUT :D
daddyyy <3
hehe my pretty elephant pencilbox!! which cant fit much I realised :/ and my pretty wrapper haha omg everything looks pretty to me!
2) marks and spencer shopping!
rushed back to hall for dinner and headed out again to oxford street marks and spencer to do my long awaited grocery shopping!!!! and by that I mean snacks to keep my mouth occupied at night haha. the loot could have been better but certain things I liked were like expiring in a week or less?! so aswin says "eat and die lah" and yes I shall be responsible for my body and not buy expiring things though I dont see how expired biscuits can hurt :/
MY STASH HAHAHA OKAY GYM WILL BE MY BEST FRIEND, PROMISE.
haha but obviously my attempts at stationery and snack retail therapy didnt work cos I got home, saw stuff that made me sad on fb and stuffzxzx and sank into depression again.
so yay thanks for my aunt agony aswin. omgg so gay he'll die if he sees this omg I swear its the night why am I so high. hyde park picnic tmr for singsoc but I bet everyone wont wake up to go ): I WANNA GO! picnic in london will be cool (:
please let me be strong, I have to I want to I need to.
haha was supposed to go chaoxiang's room to finish up Thank You for Smoking cos we were so tired last night we couldnt take such a slow movie. but okay, the talk was well worth it to give the movie a miss, we'll watch it tmr night HAHAHA. its weird okay that we are all from singapore, but all the movies they talk about/watch are so foreign to me, like I've never heard about it before! and movies I watch, they think are crap >< and they watch all the american sitcoms and all, I FEEL LIKE I HAVENT BEEN LIVING IN TODAYS TIME. they ALL, like really ALL, talk about the same shows! okay opps digress.
it is true when I say when shit happens, it all comes all together. or its maybe that Im already emotionally vulnerable today so everything that comes just seem abit bigger than it actually is.
was really feeling like shit at the end of the day after many many things and so I called aswin my dear aunt agony. and while telling him my stuff I even thought he felt bored and uninterested! instead, after finish telling him my story, he said "tell you what, I come over to commonwealth now, we'll talk in the lobby" cos it was almost 12midnight already and no guests are allowed in or we need to pay an overnight charge.
hahaha omg what would I do without my aunt agony haha thank god I havent told any of my london friends about this blog so that I can still blog about life here without worrying that they would read it. and now I can talk about how grateful I am to him for being my support all this while hahaha so gay omg lol.
which reminds me of something that he said thats super funny and sweet. cos Im so dumb and ignorant of my world around me, he decided to be my mentor for a year and teach me all thats needed to know about studies, the world, cultures, sex (HAHA he was shocked at the little extent I knew about things), general knowledge, IT and the list goes on.
and so one day during lunch I wanted to get rid all of my 1 and 2 pence coins paying for a drink but I didnt dare to cos the cashier will kill me. but he insisted anyway and I did it and nothing happened lah and he said this
"see man whatever I tell you is always right, shit you should really just listen to me for everything from now on. if I ask you to jump down a building, you should jump also"
and at first I was abit huh about it, when he continued
"cos there will be a net below to catch you"
haha idk why but I thought that felt really sweet!! for everything bad that happened in my life here in london, I thank god for this bunch of people I've met here, I really dont know what I would do without them. maybe what aswin said is true, that I've been harping on everything that went wrong, I failed to see everything that went right. positivity yo weiting.
maybe Im just feeling good only for now cos I just had a 2 hour plus talk with him and he knocked fucking alot of sense into me and tmr I'll slip back into my immature depression again ahah but right now, Im thankful (:
AND SO I SHALL BLOG ABOUT MY HALF SUCCESSFUL ATTEMPTS TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY TODAY!
1) paper chase shopping!
went down to paperchase after lecture today to grab a birthday card for my dad. omgggg I never stepped into paperchase since I got here cos cheryl made it sound damn super ex and not worth it. I REGRET ): love paperchase!!!!! its so huge and they sell such pretty stuff and its not like super ex! bought a card for my daddy but Im regretting my choice now I wanna buy another design maybe I should go down tmr to get. hahaha one thing thats changed about me since I got here, is that I cherish my family so fucking alot now they mean like the world to me. to have a home, to have a family with you, it really means so so much. and I've neevr understood this point only till now. you know looking into an apartment now makes me feel envious cos thats a home?! omgg so pathetic right.
bought wrappers to wrap my file and a cute pencil box!! :D and I saw this card for mums that was so freaking pretty, I bought it to send my mum too although theres no special occasion. because YOU DONT NEED A REASON TO REMIND THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE, THAT YOU LOVE THEM (:
paper chase :D
it looks much prettier real life!!! its POP OUT :D
daddyyy <3
hehe my pretty elephant pencilbox!! which cant fit much I realised :/ and my pretty wrapper haha omg everything looks pretty to me!
2) marks and spencer shopping!
rushed back to hall for dinner and headed out again to oxford street marks and spencer to do my long awaited grocery shopping!!!! and by that I mean snacks to keep my mouth occupied at night haha. the loot could have been better but certain things I liked were like expiring in a week or less?! so aswin says "eat and die lah" and yes I shall be responsible for my body and not buy expiring things though I dont see how expired biscuits can hurt :/
MY STASH HAHAHA OKAY GYM WILL BE MY BEST FRIEND, PROMISE.
haha but obviously my attempts at stationery and snack retail therapy didnt work cos I got home, saw stuff that made me sad on fb and stuffzxzx and sank into depression again.
so yay thanks for my aunt agony aswin. omgg so gay he'll die if he sees this omg I swear its the night why am I so high. hyde park picnic tmr for singsoc but I bet everyone wont wake up to go ): I WANNA GO! picnic in london will be cool (:
please let me be strong, I have to I want to I need to.