From good to bad
It's snowing often. It makes me not want to do anything. While I could be more productive and do my laundry I decided to sleep in. Afterwords I opened Pandora's box and used Brenda's gifts. I think it was a nice gift, after all I never buy spa stuff. The only scrubs I ever used was what I could swipe from my mother. Plus I can't remember the last time I had a bubble bath. Afterwords I finished Lord of Misrule and read At Grave's End. Which I thoroughly enjoyed. I'm such an impatient reader when it comes to waiting for next installments. Afterwords I noticed Chii wasn't as active as she usually is. She's usually such an energetic hamster. I decided to take her out and play with her. Lately she's been really sleepy. She's hardly ate so I thought she was sick. All she's been doing is curling up and hardly moving around her cage. I thought she was hibernating for a while, but hamsters aren't suppose to do it for long, and even so it's not at all cold in my room. On Friday I knew something was wrong, but I chose to go to bed instead of cheking properly on her. I spent the entire weekend in the same room as her and I didn't do much to help her. So today after spending a big chunck of this morning indulging in brainless vanity and laziness I decided to check on her. It was too late though. She's dead. All I can think about is how stupid I acted and how I could probably have prevented this somehow. She made me so happy. Such a small creature yet she followed me around the room and tickled my feet. I know some people might think me a bit old for hamsters and goldfish but they are cute and so dependent. I think that's why I cherished her most, because she was dependent on me for everything and it made me feel important even though she could probably could have cared less. I miss her so much though. When I let her play around she would climb on my bed and roam around my belly. Silly stuff. I don't want her to be gone. This room doesn't feel the same without her. My little ninja Chii.