“They’re not even properly maintained! The trains that is… I mean the slashers are world class.”
Bit of a strange mood on today's ANZAC Day -lest we forget.
I've gotten back into applying for jobs again. Have done three apps this week so far, with another (supermarket funnily enough, decided well, if it happens it happens) half way through the process, and two more places to apply for after that. Someone said the other day that no ones hiring right now, well, I'm surprised how did I find this many openings then? Starting to feel anxious though because some of these seem like they could potentially call me back? I don't know.
Now, some links from my "to post list" from last year. And a self reflecting note also written sometime last year, July possibly.
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~How come I never noticed it? Is Lily (the character) or Caroline (maybe both?) left-handed?
http://raspberry-caps.net/displayimage.php?album=141&pid=182884#top_display_media
http://raspberry-caps.net/displayimage.php?album=141&pid=182803#top_display_media
Or does she just wear her watch on her right hand. Some do. I just noticed it now that’s all.
edited during posting today: I just realised that gallery is long gone now and I only saved links. *sad* So have a blurry photo which shows Caroline wearing a watch on her right arm. I need the dvds! :(
~WH13 gifs. http://tvhaven.livejournal.com/136460.html So many gifs!
~Post about Chris Meloni being a Vampire. Dude. I might just start watching it so I can see him as one in it, ain't that the truth.
~And the silly, Yo Mama DW jokes.( http://scandalbaby.livejournal.com/28810.html)
~Hitler parody Doctor Who:
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Note: written sometime last year possibly June/July
Talk about timing of fic reviews etc.
In the last what two weeks? I’ve had two people pop over to my journal and review more than one fic apiece. And I don’t know if it’s the universe trying to tell me not to give up or what. I know with the las (last author standing) communities I’ve been both pushed out of my comfort zone and saddened to hear and see people not liking my writing.
But overall it is
a) part of the way the communities work, my types of works don’t fit as such, snap-shots don’t work well when people are voting on things and I like using them a lot
b) shorter pieces are definitely not my strong suit I see (though don’t ask me about 90k fic because I’ve stalled at my biggest 12k fic still, short under 400 words I mean)
c) over half the time the people who vote against me I see their point and that's good, constructive feedback is very helpful
So I never thought about ‘giving up’ writing. I’ll always be writing fanfiction even if no one likes it but me or even if I don't post them for friends or public to see. But I guess there was a thought in the back of my head of that one *cough* okay two books I want to write someday and have published, that well, they probably aren’t worth starting on.
And til I wrote that down right now, I really didn’t know that thought had crossed my own mind.
These two wonderful people, both funnily enough somehow in the NCIS fandom (insert names-which I have forgotten after taking this long to post about it) comments have kind of balanced my feelings on my writing as a skill.
Especially the latest lot of comments which were referring to my oldest works. If something could be even slightly recognized there and I can see how much it could be improved. Well, maybe I could get through re-doing and ploughing through pages upon pages of my own novel.
And of course, the knowledge that not everyone likes the same things. I was really happy that one of my fics got a ‘positive’ vote in the round, but at the same time someone voted against it. Two completely different reviews, tiny things touched people in different ways.
It was why I started to like writing, to tell a story. Because being caught in that moment of transposing my ideas or feelings onto something that I could read back and understand was thrilling. And when I found out that people in class liked my stories, or found the way I wrote interesting or laughed at the little twists or descriptions… it was…enlightening. Uplifting. Freeing.
Though I still never wanted to voluntarily read out my work; usually the teacher or another student asked to read mine out loud. Which was both embarrassing and as I said before freeing because this was a part of me that I was sharing. Even the 100 per cent fiction creative writing pieces, it had my thoughts in it. It had my voice in some way in it!
Fanfiction, while it is more like using somebody else’ voice (in my opinion), because someone else created the characters and canon storylines. There’s still a portion of that exposure, the part between did they understand what I was trying to say in the character’s voice or did it even sound like the character?
So there is a certain expectation already set out for you. In original work having your stories cut down or not receive a good reception, it’s a little more personal, and I guess I was beginning to think that; if I can’t handle writing fanfiction I would never be able to handle writing normal fiction.
The thing is… the thing that got me hooked was creative writing (original). So, perhaps stepping up and trying out a draft of a novel isn’t such a bad idea. After all, it’s actually back into my comfort zone if my own reasoning is to be believed.
Love and regards,
my inner self.
I've gotten back into applying for jobs again. Have done three apps this week so far, with another (supermarket funnily enough, decided well, if it happens it happens) half way through the process, and two more places to apply for after that. Someone said the other day that no ones hiring right now, well, I'm surprised how did I find this many openings then? Starting to feel anxious though because some of these seem like they could potentially call me back? I don't know.
Now, some links from my "to post list" from last year. And a self reflecting note also written sometime last year, July possibly.
---
~How come I never noticed it? Is Lily (the character) or Caroline (maybe both?) left-handed?
http://raspberry-caps.net/displayimage.php?album=141&pid=182884#top_display_media
http://raspberry-caps.net/displayimage.php?album=141&pid=182803#top_display_media
Or does she just wear her watch on her right hand. Some do. I just noticed it now that’s all.
edited during posting today: I just realised that gallery is long gone now and I only saved links. *sad* So have a blurry photo which shows Caroline wearing a watch on her right arm. I need the dvds! :(
~WH13 gifs. http://tvhaven.livejournal.com/136460.html So many gifs!
~Post about Chris Meloni being a Vampire. Dude. I might just start watching it so I can see him as one in it, ain't that the truth.
~And the silly, Yo Mama DW jokes.( http://scandalbaby.livejournal.com/28810.html)
~Hitler parody Doctor Who:
Click to view+++
Note: written sometime last year possibly June/July
Talk about timing of fic reviews etc.
In the last what two weeks? I’ve had two people pop over to my journal and review more than one fic apiece. And I don’t know if it’s the universe trying to tell me not to give up or what. I know with the las (last author standing) communities I’ve been both pushed out of my comfort zone and saddened to hear and see people not liking my writing.
But overall it is
a) part of the way the communities work, my types of works don’t fit as such, snap-shots don’t work well when people are voting on things and I like using them a lot
b) shorter pieces are definitely not my strong suit I see (though don’t ask me about 90k fic because I’ve stalled at my biggest 12k fic still, short under 400 words I mean)
c) over half the time the people who vote against me I see their point and that's good, constructive feedback is very helpful
So I never thought about ‘giving up’ writing. I’ll always be writing fanfiction even if no one likes it but me or even if I don't post them for friends or public to see. But I guess there was a thought in the back of my head of that one *cough* okay two books I want to write someday and have published, that well, they probably aren’t worth starting on.
And til I wrote that down right now, I really didn’t know that thought had crossed my own mind.
These two wonderful people, both funnily enough somehow in the NCIS fandom (insert names-which I have forgotten after taking this long to post about it) comments have kind of balanced my feelings on my writing as a skill.
Especially the latest lot of comments which were referring to my oldest works. If something could be even slightly recognized there and I can see how much it could be improved. Well, maybe I could get through re-doing and ploughing through pages upon pages of my own novel.
And of course, the knowledge that not everyone likes the same things. I was really happy that one of my fics got a ‘positive’ vote in the round, but at the same time someone voted against it. Two completely different reviews, tiny things touched people in different ways.
It was why I started to like writing, to tell a story. Because being caught in that moment of transposing my ideas or feelings onto something that I could read back and understand was thrilling. And when I found out that people in class liked my stories, or found the way I wrote interesting or laughed at the little twists or descriptions… it was…enlightening. Uplifting. Freeing.
Though I still never wanted to voluntarily read out my work; usually the teacher or another student asked to read mine out loud. Which was both embarrassing and as I said before freeing because this was a part of me that I was sharing. Even the 100 per cent fiction creative writing pieces, it had my thoughts in it. It had my voice in some way in it!
Fanfiction, while it is more like using somebody else’ voice (in my opinion), because someone else created the characters and canon storylines. There’s still a portion of that exposure, the part between did they understand what I was trying to say in the character’s voice or did it even sound like the character?
So there is a certain expectation already set out for you. In original work having your stories cut down or not receive a good reception, it’s a little more personal, and I guess I was beginning to think that; if I can’t handle writing fanfiction I would never be able to handle writing normal fiction.
The thing is… the thing that got me hooked was creative writing (original). So, perhaps stepping up and trying out a draft of a novel isn’t such a bad idea. After all, it’s actually back into my comfort zone if my own reasoning is to be believed.
Love and regards,
my inner self.