I must confess
I am so glad there is only two days left of this ridiculous 30 day meme. I don't know why I thought this would be fun! *sigh* But I am stubborn and WILL get through it. But then I have Zombie Apocalypse Ficathon week! XD
30 Day Letter Meme
Day 29 - The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to:
Dear Jax and cousin Viv,
You both mean a lot to me, and so its always harder to risk or open up to those you don't want to lose or be disrespected by. Vivian you always tell me I can tell you anything and overall I know you'd be there for me (even if I went to jail for killing someone -though not somebody you loved) but...I really want something back from you. You don't tell me that much, I know a few 'secrets' or things you say here and there not to tell your dad or my family but it seems like they're superficial things that you give to 'appear' that you're telling me. Though I know its not too, because a few people don't know these things. But you still don't seem to offer enough to make me feel that if I told you things that there was a two way street happening. So...I guess I'll hold off until you can open up or show me that you're trying...
Jax, I know you'll be there too but I feel more distant to you these days as in natural since we hardly see each other. I know if I speak things would be different and I don't know if I'd like that change or not. Its always scary opening thoughts so deep. I really don't want to be the thing that started a rift between us. :/
~love me.
~~~
The Indian place we booked a table for 9 people at 7pm was open and we sat down ate some papadams and talked whilst people still arrived. We finally figured out what we wanted to order, and then the guy said that they had a problem and the gas had been cut or the gas lighter wouldn't start! My two friends (who are sisters) both have eaten there before and loved it, they were disappointed. We ended up at a different Indian place a suburb away. It was good. Aloo parantha a little salty but two friends tried it (i ordered myself one piece) and loved it. Jax and I both had lamb korma it was good. They ordered 4 naans and coconut rice for everyone.
Good to see some of those guys again. Only three guys there that time. One is the boyfriend of one of the sisters, another is gay and the other..I can't remember if he's also gay or not. I like him, so he's either gay or got a girlfriend. *winks*
It was quite windy today so in the end I'm glad I had a reason not to go to tennis. I hate playing tennis in the wind!