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alright so me and dan have been fighting we fought again today no surprise - and i actually thought about it being the " last chance" i told him he had .....and i noticed im afriad to give him up- so i cant give him up- even though sometimes i think he deserves it because he doesnt know how he makes me feel but you know what i guess you cant just let go of someone you love-
So in math today Dan didnt look at me once....made me sad
So after lunch today Dan walked away from me ......made me sad
So after app. chem. i saw Dan and let everything else blow off........
+He walked away from me when i told him i loved him......made me sad
I walked away so slow i thought i would never get to spanish.....my mind was caught in thought
So i wrote a note telling him to please just forget everything cause fightings not worth it
.......I gave it to him and the next time i saw him I asked him whats wrong and why he was mad and he said some non sense that still got to me and made me cry
He walked away
I followed him....
He walked away again.....
So after 5 times of walking away from me without even taking one second to think about how he was treating me
I stood there and i cryed ....he finally looked back....but i guess he still didnt care cause he kept walking....
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
my life is like a poem- im depressed- but im happy-
I guess im an acception and i can be happy and sad at the same time
**Because I know
Ill never know how it feels
to be loved like this ever again!!!!**
its because i love him so much -
I just dont know what to do
To make things better
Ive been doing all i can ....
what else do I have to do to please you baby?
Im trying to hard to be perfect - *(for you)*