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And now for a somewhat depressing post...
Ever have hundreds of songs on your computer... and it's on shuffle... then a song comes up that you haven't heard in awhile, usually because you skip over it? Well..that came up today... and I realized the lyics are exactly what I'm feeling lately... So Far So Good by Thornley...
I feel a little bit left of center
but then again we've all been there before
Every time I see a lost cause coming
it's nothing less, nothing more
Every time I get lost in paradise
I find a way to screw it up somehow
It's not the way it's supposed to be
but it'll do for now
When you're right, you're right
Everything else in my life just might be wrong
You're wrong all the time
So far so good 'cause no one knows I'm faking
I wish I could show you the toll it's taking
Sometimes I live as if there's no tomorrow
So far so good
I better find a way to cross my fingers
half the luck'll get me twice as far
I'm sick and tired of coming up for air
it shouldn't be this hard
Every little bit'll help I wonder
if it's enough or did I cross the line
The kitchen counter is a bad reminder of a better time
When you're right, you're right
Everything else in my life just might be wrong
You're wrong all the time
So far so good 'cause no one knows I'm faking
I wish I could show you the toll it's taking
Sometimes I live as if there's no tomorrow
So far so good
Those that I've talked to over the past few days knows what I'm talking about... mostly Heather...and Kyle...and my mom. heh. So really this post is for Heather, since Kyle not's on LJ and I hope to god my mom doesn't. There's just a lot of stuff going on right now, in life and in my head, and it's hard to deal with it all when people around you don't know you all that well. 13 more days until I go home and I don't really think I've looked forward to anything before that much. I just really need to chill, and hang in the snow, and go for a walk, and talk nonsense without worrying about people getting pissed off for me disagreeing and drink some hot chocolate, and be harassed by others brothers and friends and cousins. I need people around me who know me. ... it's kind of the only way that I can truly be myself it seems lately. I just want to hide out for awhile...sleep away the days and nights until exams where I have a breakdown and fail. Which.. may happen. Stay tuned!