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I didn't notice the twins were missing until Friday and even then I wasn't worried, it was more of a 'What's this have you seen Fred and George lately' thing and I thought they were irresponsible. I went to their shop early in the week and it was unlocked. I called them irresponsible. I even said it out loud, you know the way you do things sometimes, I said it to myself and I dusted a shelf off and I locked the door from the outside. All the torches were burnt out and I thought they weren't there. I checked their flat and they weren't there and they weren't at the shop and I did'nt think anything was wrong with that. Because I'm a horrible mother and I didn't even notice my children were bleeding in the same building while I dusted, while I dusted they were bleeding and crying and dying in the back room of their shop and I was there and I didn't notice. Thats not true though, Kingsley told me George was probably already dead then that he was killed on Monday he thinks when Harry had that nightmare. He was having a ngihtmare about my little boy dying. And I left Fred and Charlie there with him, for days I just left them there. I didn't even notice they were gone until Friday, I didn't even know Charlie was home yet until Friday and then I thought hm where is Charlie and I reckon he stopped there first because he loves the twins you know. Everyone loves the twins. They're doing relaly well with their joke shop you know I'm proud of them but I don't tell them I just call them irresponsible, I didn't even see Charlie's trunk in the shop, I didn't notice it or maybe if I did I would have wondered what was wrong or noticed sooner maybe before Friday. But I didn't, I left them there for days. I didn't even think anything was wrong when I went over. I thought they were pulling a stupid joke or left to do something stupid. That's exactly what I said. And then I went there and they were all laying there in the back. Everything smelt so awful and I thought they were all dead, and I didn't know what, to do and I just sat there in the corner and I didn't do anything because I'm bloody stupid and I couldn't move and maybe if I'd moved sooner Charlie would have been ok but instead I sat there for almost an hour why? and I didn't do anything and I thought I was going to die too and then Fred made a noise and I thought they were all alive. I went to Madam Malkin's and she helped me and there was so much blood, but it wasn't even red anymore, it was mostly turning brown like blood does. Why didn't anyone hear anything why did they put silence chamrs on their shop because they are polite and they're such good boys, Charlie tried to bite his way through his gag by the way, they said he almost bit through his tounge. He always did so good in school. If I had gone sooner maybe they would have killed me instead and then everything would be all right but no I stayed at home and cooked stupid food and, I said they were irresponsible. Fred and George tied Ginny to a tree once and left her there for hours. George died on Monday. George is dead. And that's wrong to say. He's DEAD, and he's NEVER COMING BACK AND HE'S MY LITTLE BOY AND NOBODY TELLS ME WHY AND NOBODY TELLS ME WHY THEY WOULD DO THIS TO MY LITTLE BOY. PLEASE TELL ME WHY MY CHILDREN DESERVED THIS
Charlie doesn't look at us, we got to see him and he doesn't look at us or anything. He's missing a tooth, will they fix that? Ginny's birthday is this week
When I found them they were tied up and there was blood all over the ropes and their wrists where they tried to get the ropes off, only not George's.
Fred told us they thought one of them had a dream, about You-Know-Who's attack on Hogwarts, they thought it was Fred and George and Charlie came in in the middle of it and he tried to stop it and he didn't and they put the cruciatus curse on him over and over and they wouldn't stop, because, he tried to help, my beautiful baby. WHY DO THESE THINGS KEEP HAPPENING TO MY CHILDREN, AND WHY ISN'T THERE A GOD TO LISTEN AND STOP IT? i feel like I'm being punished because I did something wrong and my children, they get hurt because of it and Ginny is so small and she almost died once and I thought I was dead then. Fred said they kept asking for prophecies and they didn't have any. They didn't have any so why couldn't anyone leave them alone??? I couldn't breath and i thought I was going to choke in the twins shop and I threw up and everyone saw it when they came to get them, everyone saw what I did. They didn't even want them, they wanted someone else and my George is dead, because of it.. and they hurt them because they were the wrong twins and Pettigrew wasn't even there, he was a diversion so we'd look the wrong way and we did, do you k now I was looking for Pettigrew.. I was looking for rats and my sons were dying and I killed George because of it. And now everyone's life is ruined, my children they're my life and why would someone take that from me?? I DON'T UNDERSTAND. Fred and George are lovely and happy and innocent and they are easy going and they destroyed them WHY? They always laugh and Charlie, is so like them and he is a beautiful Quidditch player and he comes hoem with burns all the time and he called me Molly for a week when he was little because he thought it was the same thing as Mummy. I sat with George's body for hours in St Mungo's and I tried to pick him up, you know I tried to hold him and he was limp and he just fell over and he couldn't move and why? His eyes were open but they seemed so sunken and like he wasn't looking at anything and I cant get that out of my head, my baby and his heavy arms and his skin was so cold and hard and I wanted to close his eyes but I was afraid theyd roll back in his head and his jumper, he was wearing a jumper that I made him it was fair isle and I'm no good at fair isle so it wasn't very good I should stick to intarsia and WHY CAN'T THE PROPHET GET MY SON'S NAMES RIGHT? WHY DID THEY HAVE TO DO THAT AFTER EVERYTHING, TO MAKE IT EVEN WORSE TO MAKE IT SEEM LIKE NO ONE EVEN CARED WHICH OF MY SONS ARE DEAD, FRED GEORGE WHO CARES RIGHT ONE OR THE OTHER JUST WRITE IT BUT IT'S GEORGE, GEORGE And Arthur told me I couldn't hold him anymore and I can't stop crying. Please why won't someone give me my son back? I'm sorry I'm a bad mother, Fred thought I hated him before and he thought I wanted a girl, George wishes Arthur was rich and I'm sorry we aren't/
He didn't do anything to anyone and please just let me die instead. My eyes hurt so much and I feel like I can't breath. Charlie just lays there and he has to get better because they can't take away 2 of my children because I need them all. Their birthday was 1 April, they just had a birthday and that's not right, it was just their birthday and they were happy.
we don't have the money to do anything but burn him and I want to throw up about it. Someone sent us money but we can't use that and it's not right and I don't want to think of my poor baby burnt because then there's nothing left of him and he's gone he's really gone and please I just want him back. I know you ca't do anything bu tI have to do something, I don't want anyone to burn up his body BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING LEFT OF MY BABY THEN, my baby who was 4 and had tiny hands and tiny feet and his legs couldn't readh over the edge of the chair and I can't burn those tiny feet into ashes I can't. Ginny and Ron have to go back at Hogwarts soon and I want to take them out of school. But I can't keep them safe either, and god please I'm so sorry for everything I"ve done but please just let them be safe, I'm sorry for what I've done to George and Charlie and Fred, my poor Fred who watched and watched and I can't stand to see him cry, not our twins please, WHAT CAN I DO???????? Please
I'm sorry I shouldn't have written this. I can't look at Arthur and everything hurts and there's nothing and I don't want to be here anymore and I'm so sorry for everything I did.
Charlie doesn't look at us, we got to see him and he doesn't look at us or anything. He's missing a tooth, will they fix that? Ginny's birthday is this week
When I found them they were tied up and there was blood all over the ropes and their wrists where they tried to get the ropes off, only not George's.
Fred told us they thought one of them had a dream, about You-Know-Who's attack on Hogwarts, they thought it was Fred and George and Charlie came in in the middle of it and he tried to stop it and he didn't and they put the cruciatus curse on him over and over and they wouldn't stop, because, he tried to help, my beautiful baby. WHY DO THESE THINGS KEEP HAPPENING TO MY CHILDREN, AND WHY ISN'T THERE A GOD TO LISTEN AND STOP IT? i feel like I'm being punished because I did something wrong and my children, they get hurt because of it and Ginny is so small and she almost died once and I thought I was dead then. Fred said they kept asking for prophecies and they didn't have any. They didn't have any so why couldn't anyone leave them alone??? I couldn't breath and i thought I was going to choke in the twins shop and I threw up and everyone saw it when they came to get them, everyone saw what I did. They didn't even want them, they wanted someone else and my George is dead, because of it.. and they hurt them because they were the wrong twins and Pettigrew wasn't even there, he was a diversion so we'd look the wrong way and we did, do you k now I was looking for Pettigrew.. I was looking for rats and my sons were dying and I killed George because of it. And now everyone's life is ruined, my children they're my life and why would someone take that from me?? I DON'T UNDERSTAND. Fred and George are lovely and happy and innocent and they are easy going and they destroyed them WHY? They always laugh and Charlie, is so like them and he is a beautiful Quidditch player and he comes hoem with burns all the time and he called me Molly for a week when he was little because he thought it was the same thing as Mummy. I sat with George's body for hours in St Mungo's and I tried to pick him up, you know I tried to hold him and he was limp and he just fell over and he couldn't move and why? His eyes were open but they seemed so sunken and like he wasn't looking at anything and I cant get that out of my head, my baby and his heavy arms and his skin was so cold and hard and I wanted to close his eyes but I was afraid theyd roll back in his head and his jumper, he was wearing a jumper that I made him it was fair isle and I'm no good at fair isle so it wasn't very good I should stick to intarsia and WHY CAN'T THE PROPHET GET MY SON'S NAMES RIGHT? WHY DID THEY HAVE TO DO THAT AFTER EVERYTHING, TO MAKE IT EVEN WORSE TO MAKE IT SEEM LIKE NO ONE EVEN CARED WHICH OF MY SONS ARE DEAD, FRED GEORGE WHO CARES RIGHT ONE OR THE OTHER JUST WRITE IT BUT IT'S GEORGE, GEORGE And Arthur told me I couldn't hold him anymore and I can't stop crying. Please why won't someone give me my son back? I'm sorry I'm a bad mother, Fred thought I hated him before and he thought I wanted a girl, George wishes Arthur was rich and I'm sorry we aren't/
He didn't do anything to anyone and please just let me die instead. My eyes hurt so much and I feel like I can't breath. Charlie just lays there and he has to get better because they can't take away 2 of my children because I need them all. Their birthday was 1 April, they just had a birthday and that's not right, it was just their birthday and they were happy.
we don't have the money to do anything but burn him and I want to throw up about it. Someone sent us money but we can't use that and it's not right and I don't want to think of my poor baby burnt because then there's nothing left of him and he's gone he's really gone and please I just want him back. I know you ca't do anything bu tI have to do something, I don't want anyone to burn up his body BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING LEFT OF MY BABY THEN, my baby who was 4 and had tiny hands and tiny feet and his legs couldn't readh over the edge of the chair and I can't burn those tiny feet into ashes I can't. Ginny and Ron have to go back at Hogwarts soon and I want to take them out of school. But I can't keep them safe either, and god please I'm so sorry for everything I"ve done but please just let them be safe, I'm sorry for what I've done to George and Charlie and Fred, my poor Fred who watched and watched and I can't stand to see him cry, not our twins please, WHAT CAN I DO???????? Please
I'm sorry I shouldn't have written this. I can't look at Arthur and everything hurts and there's nothing and I don't want to be here anymore and I'm so sorry for everything I did.