all is well, all is well...
i've been admitted to IUS (branch of IU back home)... i now have an office job... i'm getting a car (yay!)... and the mediocrity of life has started to hit me (only sooner, thanks depauw for cushioning that for 2.5 years)... it's finally settled in that i'm not going back to depauw... no emails, one post (thanks mike, i need to come see you)... a few IMs, but nothing much... what do i have left from the last 2.5 years, but memories? i hope i'll visit before graduation... i truly hope... but i dunno how things will work out... i miss several people... this last month has been crazy... i saw finley's brother in louisville... i saw an ex girlfriend tonight... she looked good and i'm glad that she's come home and continued school down here... i just dunno why she avoided me tonight, kind of disheartening, but oh well... i started to write again, but then started to get distracted when i started looking for a house w/ josh... my dad has talked to me about girls several times lately and i think i should just tell him i'm gay and he'd shut up.... (i'm not, but it'd be funny to me if i told him that)... i've pictured myself settling down, and i don't want that... i want to be sure of who i will marry, yes.. but i don't want to just stop having fun and settle down and have a family... i had a nice dinner w/ my parents tonight and shared a bottle of wine w/ them... that was very nice... i love my parents and i'm glad that i've got a job now so they'll get off my back... i truly wish my life was different right now... i don't mean better, cause it's fine... just kinda boring.... and maybe it always has been... bryan may try to hook me up w/ his ex... she seemed like an amazing girl... too bad he didn't stay w/ her.... i hate that all my friends at home are engaged or married... i hate that some foriegn person stole my card number and charged an online english test for 130 bucks... i hate that i'm losing weight but can't see the results of it... i'm tired, a little lonely, but that's nothing new... it's just the same ol' same ol' and all is well, all is well....... it's well.... smug.