Feb 25, 2008 19:25
I feel like everything I see, I'm seeing for the very first time.
It's not the first time I've been away from home for a week but something about this time is different.
I feel so... foreign.
I wasn't sure if it was the Dayquil I took this morning or if maybe I have been changed. Maybe it's both.
All I know is that I don't want to lose what I've gained. I don't want to miss this opportunity to start over.
People who weren't there may never understand but it was just a really beautiful experience.
It's so funny talking to people who went and finding we're all going through the same thing.
We seemed to be surrounded by these bubbles that keep out negativity
and we just want to go around hugging everyone all of the time.
I'm telling you- if you weren't there- you'd think we were crazy.
I hate people who flaunt their inside jokes but we find we cant help it-
it's all sort of a part of who we are now.
But it was just so beautiful. Before my own eyes- I saw people's lives change.
I think about people like Justin and I hope that he is doing well and doesnt lose what he gained.
I think about the things I have to work on in my own life.
I wrote a letter to my family while I was there. I havent given it to them yet but I'm going to
try not to miss this opportunity to change the direction of where things are headed.
I'm so glad I went, as I knew I would be. I'm really proud of myself and all of the people who shared
this with me.
I just dont want to lose it.