day after my bday
s0o i turned 19 yesterday and it was pretty lame.. the one guy i wanted to call never called which is bs cause he knows my bday i just saw him sunday and its the same as his nephew... he can call to say happy new years but not birthday i mean thats all i really wanted... but whatever... s0o for my bday i worked then went to dinner wit my mother and father and after that i went to my lil bros hockey game hehe i told my bro all i wanted from him fo my bday is either 19 goals or a win... well i got neither :( they should have won but the refs sucked they were calling shit on the other team and everything on us my bro got a 20 min penalty for tryin to break up a fight then telling the ref he was a fag... haha those refs are lucky my mom was there cause i would have been kicked out haha.. s0o0 for my birthday i got the most random gift the little marmaid on dvd haha.... ooo and b4 i went to my bro game i stopped at my grandparents and my grandmother asked me how old i was and i was like 19 and she like wow i thought u would b married by then and i was like holy shit cause today at work this guy was talking about how he got married at 19 and its just crazy... i mean im not even sure what really love is... is it what i feel for the one who never called or is that lust... i dunno... its hard to get me to settle down with one guy for awhile i just need to b free but then i feel like im ready to settle down and start that kinda life since i have lived the party life but again i dunno what really love is... i just hope i find it one day lol.. w